WEBVTT 1 00:00:01.970 --> 00:00:09.279 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): I'm really looking forward to our pilgrimage in Puja today, and I know for some of you, this might be your first 2 00:00:09.470 --> 00:00:16.319 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): One, and so generally, what you can kind of expect is a bit more of a practice. 3 00:00:16.500 --> 00:00:22.550 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): We'll do a practice together, and it'll connect to… 4 00:00:23.300 --> 00:00:31.449 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): A theme, could be a theme in this moment, could be a theme… often it'll be themes connected to yogic… 5 00:00:31.750 --> 00:00:45.680 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): culture. And so we are actually at the… we just had the equinox, and we had our first night of Navratri. And Navratri is the sacred time of the goddess. 6 00:00:45.850 --> 00:01:00.159 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And it's a time to honor Durga in all of her many forms. Durga is, like, a fierce protector, a mother goddess, also a warrior, a fighter for justice, and… 7 00:01:00.380 --> 00:01:03.180 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): So I thought we would do a little bit of a practice. 8 00:01:03.430 --> 00:01:09.690 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): there, and it's less… our pilgrimage and pujas are less, a time… 9 00:01:09.740 --> 00:01:25.419 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): to, like, ask questions or kind of be in the head, they're more embodied, they're more practice-oriented. And so, if you would like, if you have a candle and a place to put some water, you can also just, like, have water that you're drinking. Invitation. 10 00:01:25.890 --> 00:01:31.609 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): To pour your water into the… The container that you're using. 11 00:01:32.020 --> 00:01:35.620 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): So I've got a small little… 12 00:01:36.360 --> 00:01:43.170 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): You can have… doesn't have to be big, right? You just have your… your water, water that you're drinking. 13 00:01:43.450 --> 00:01:51.370 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And then, if you've got a candle, To… light your candle. 14 00:01:55.890 --> 00:02:08.319 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And if you don't have a candle or water, it's absolutely fine. You can just connect to this energetically. Part of the power of 15 00:02:08.830 --> 00:02:23.190 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): yoga is the internalization of ritual, right? So, understanding that any ritual we do outside, including asana, mantra, meditation, all of these, mudra, the sacred gesture, sound. 16 00:02:23.640 --> 00:02:33.640 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): meditative practice, it's all… As a form of internalization of the sacred. 17 00:02:34.550 --> 00:02:42.489 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And so, we'll take a moment to, if you have a candle, or if you're looking at this one, I know it's not quite the same, let me see if I have it better. 18 00:02:42.870 --> 00:02:46.440 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): candle that I can light for you to see. 19 00:02:49.580 --> 00:02:55.969 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): But we'll take a moment and gaze into… That flame, there we go. 20 00:02:57.600 --> 00:03:07.019 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And gazing into… The flame, that inner… An outer spark light. 21 00:03:07.980 --> 00:03:10.639 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And this is a practice of tratec. 22 00:03:11.640 --> 00:03:17.069 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): candle gazing, and there are two ways to do tratec. You can… 23 00:03:18.390 --> 00:03:21.160 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Gaze at the light, at the flame. 24 00:03:21.490 --> 00:03:36.100 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): and blink, like you normally would, or you can gaze at the flame unblinking, and if you gaze unblinkingly, you might notice that your eyes start to water, it's like a cleansing kriya, and so you'll begin to, 25 00:03:36.280 --> 00:03:44.930 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): to see that, or experience that. And I'm gonna spotlight myself, but you're welcome to, if you prefer, go to gallery view. 26 00:03:45.970 --> 00:03:54.099 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): So, invitation to stare into the flame, or another option is to close your eyes and visualize the flame. 27 00:03:57.910 --> 00:04:02.320 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): I'm breathing in… I'm breathing out… 28 00:04:24.190 --> 00:04:28.399 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): This flame, I'm noticing, is flickering and dancing so much. 29 00:04:30.610 --> 00:04:38.099 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And as you contemplate this flame connecting to the light of yogic wisdom that has been passed down. 30 00:04:38.250 --> 00:04:41.190 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Through time and space and form. 31 00:04:45.200 --> 00:04:51.859 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And if you'd like, you can place your flame down somewhere where you can see it, obviously remembering to… 32 00:04:52.010 --> 00:04:54.410 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Put it out later. 33 00:04:56.260 --> 00:04:58.329 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): I'm just putting out the first one. 34 00:04:58.520 --> 00:04:59.660 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And… 35 00:05:00.480 --> 00:05:19.339 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): We'll bring our hands into a mudra. This is a byproduct mudra, so one hand up, and the other hand, and I'll stand just so you can see, is down. So one hand is up like this, and the other hand is down, pointing forward. So this is, like, the sacred no. We explored this a little bit. 36 00:05:19.340 --> 00:05:27.080 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): earlier, and it's in Yoga Changemaker Magazine. It's a really powerful mudra. Sacred No and the Sacred Yes. 37 00:05:27.560 --> 00:05:28.949 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Right, like, stop. 38 00:05:29.280 --> 00:05:32.490 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And I am here to serve. I am here to help. 39 00:05:33.320 --> 00:05:40.450 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And so, finding your mudra, I'm breathing in… And breathing out. 40 00:05:44.200 --> 00:05:51.029 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): I'm connecting to… The story and arc of Novratri. 41 00:05:52.490 --> 00:05:58.010 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): each phase reflects an aspect of Durga, and also the… 42 00:05:58.230 --> 00:06:04.750 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): The triune form of creation, preservation, destruction, transformation. 43 00:06:05.220 --> 00:06:13.830 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): The first three nights of Narati are Durga in her fierce form, remover of ignorance, fear, and obstacles. 44 00:06:14.140 --> 00:06:17.209 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): These are the Knights of destruction. 45 00:06:17.710 --> 00:06:25.000 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Not as harm, but, like, clearing away. And it could be… you could visualize it like your nervous system releasing. 46 00:06:25.570 --> 00:06:30.250 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Trembling, discharging, howling, moving. 47 00:06:31.260 --> 00:06:36.070 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): So if there's anything you want to do here, maybe shaking your hands, moving your body. 48 00:06:37.030 --> 00:06:40.660 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Deep breath in, and exhale with the sound. 49 00:06:46.760 --> 00:06:56.640 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And then the middle three nights, an invitation, if you'd like, to come back to the same mudra, but different sides, so now opposite hand up and the other hand out, like this. 50 00:06:56.800 --> 00:07:01.820 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): The middle three nights of Novaratri belong to the goddess 51 00:07:02.120 --> 00:07:07.929 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): In her form as Lakshmi. Creation, nourishment, abundance. 52 00:07:08.140 --> 00:07:15.139 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): When you've let go of what holds you back, you plant the new seeds, right? You can begin to kind of create… 53 00:07:16.010 --> 00:07:29.909 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And so nervous system here moves into regulation, harmony, balance, grounded energy, and you might like to sway, or maybe move in spirals, whatever feels like your expression of this. 54 00:07:30.750 --> 00:07:31.730 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): shape. 55 00:07:32.130 --> 00:07:32.940 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): this. 56 00:07:33.080 --> 00:07:34.060 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): form. 57 00:07:40.810 --> 00:07:49.479 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And then exhale, and you can keep your hands in this major… or just rest them down on your body in any comfortable, easeful shape. 58 00:07:49.750 --> 00:08:01.779 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): The last three nights belong to the manifestation of the goddess as Saraswati, wisdom, clarity, preservation, transformation. 59 00:08:03.270 --> 00:08:05.780 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And it's here that we integrate… 60 00:08:06.290 --> 00:08:10.830 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): That we bask in the joy of our creations. 61 00:08:11.220 --> 00:08:16.150 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): The fun of… All that we are. 62 00:08:16.290 --> 00:08:17.530 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And rest. 63 00:08:17.970 --> 00:08:21.230 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): So it's like our nervous system at ease. 64 00:08:21.510 --> 00:08:34.479 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And whatever that ease might feel like in this moment for your body, maybe it's just, like, relaxing, leaning to one side or another, placing your head in your hand, placing a hand on your heart. 65 00:08:35.720 --> 00:08:36.840 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Hmm… 66 00:08:44.460 --> 00:08:51.860 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And we'll move into a practice… a movement practice in a moment, but I want to take some time to… 67 00:08:52.050 --> 00:08:55.620 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Come into, journaling, actually, first. 68 00:08:55.870 --> 00:09:06.399 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And… so I'll put the prompts in the chat, but keeping the focus kind of inwards, and then outwards just to move into writing for yourself. 69 00:09:07.060 --> 00:09:17.739 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And, as we're exploring, you know, trauma-informed yoga and, like, connecting our nervous systems to these practices. 70 00:09:20.110 --> 00:09:23.420 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Invitation to reflect on. 71 00:09:24.530 --> 00:09:26.419 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): What in you needs… 72 00:09:26.850 --> 00:09:33.919 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): destroying, right? It's, like, doesn't have to be, like, truly destroying, but it could be, like, letting go. 73 00:09:34.200 --> 00:09:44.520 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): A pattern, a thought, a fear. What in me wants to be nourished or created? What wisdom is ready to be integrated? 74 00:09:44.850 --> 00:09:53.370 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And how might your nervous system reflect the same arc, from activation to balance, to then, like, rest and joy? 75 00:09:54.010 --> 00:09:56.210 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And perhaps… oops. 76 00:09:57.130 --> 00:10:08.159 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): share that, put that in the chat. And perhaps if you're more, like, in one place, like, many of us may be just in the activation space, right? Not really… 77 00:10:08.450 --> 00:10:11.600 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): In a place to think about, rest, and joy. 78 00:10:11.710 --> 00:10:13.480 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Then just reflect on that. 79 00:10:13.910 --> 00:10:23.730 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And if you are more in, like, a… like, want to reflect on the seeds, then explore… explore that. And we'll take about… 80 00:10:23.940 --> 00:10:28.579 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): 4 or 5 minutes, I like to play some music with no sound. 81 00:10:28.820 --> 00:10:37.300 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And, and then we'll move into the next phase of our practice. And you can write in… 82 00:10:37.450 --> 00:10:40.749 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): The chat, you can write in your journal, wherever you would like. 83 00:10:41.750 --> 00:10:43.930 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Let me share a nice sound. 84 00:15:47.000 --> 00:15:51.140 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): So, just taking a minute more to finish up your thoughts. 85 00:16:18.550 --> 00:16:22.249 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And as we share, I just want to kind of talk about, 86 00:16:23.270 --> 00:16:29.200 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): You know, as we're exploring our nervous systems, there's this… 87 00:16:29.410 --> 00:16:33.459 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Way that we get, like, habituated to… 88 00:16:34.960 --> 00:16:41.510 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): a survival response, right? And… and… we feel… 89 00:16:42.560 --> 00:16:45.270 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Or we can feel like we have to… 90 00:16:45.690 --> 00:16:54.239 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Protect, or stop, or, you know, like, not do a certain thing because it's not safe, or it's not okay for us. 91 00:16:54.350 --> 00:16:55.480 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And… 92 00:16:55.660 --> 00:17:05.610 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): That may be true in the moment, but later, once we're through and out the other side, right, the experience isn't right there. 93 00:17:05.960 --> 00:17:07.500 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): present. 94 00:17:08.369 --> 00:17:20.980 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): we can then create and kind of titrate at the level our nervous system is comfortable, what are called disconfirming experiences, right? Or another way of putting it is, like, confirming of our power. 95 00:17:21.060 --> 00:17:34.589 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And so by that, I mean, if something happened where we had to feel like we couldn't be our full selves, like, say, in our family of origin, right? Like, I think about this a lot. As I parent my kiddo. 96 00:17:34.590 --> 00:17:45.249 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Who, like, wow, I catch myself being like, you're being too much right now, you know? And it's like, right, do I really need to say that in that way? 97 00:17:45.370 --> 00:17:52.160 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And… in my own home, or family of origin, right? Like, that feeling of… 98 00:17:52.370 --> 00:18:02.450 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): too much emotion, or too much this, or too much that. And some… some people may not have had that, but many of us have, and so we feel like we can't be our full selves, or we can't be seen. 99 00:18:02.760 --> 00:18:15.799 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And so, of course, sometimes it's just practical to have your camera off and not be seen, but part of what we're exploring with disconfirming, right, or reconfirming, depending on which way you like to explore that. 100 00:18:15.910 --> 00:18:27.399 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): It's like, we get to confirm our power, our ability to be seen. And so, you can do whatever is most supportive, right? The pace and the way that your nervous system feels. 101 00:18:27.650 --> 00:18:35.470 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): like, it wants to move into it. But, for example, if you generally don't share out in a group, perhaps it's… 102 00:18:35.880 --> 00:18:52.780 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): okay, you know, taking the mudra, the mudra of power and fearlessness, I'm safe enough in this moment to try sharing. Maybe I'll just share in the chat. Maybe I'll share, you know, a little bit of information, about myself or about my process there. 103 00:18:52.840 --> 00:18:58.579 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Or maybe I'll have my camera on, right? For 5 minutes, I'll explore what that feels like. 104 00:18:58.670 --> 00:19:16.449 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): To be seen, to be perceived, right? And is it okay in my nervous system? And how does that feel? Because, for example, if we're wanting to take up more space, or wanting to move into things where we need to be seen or viewed, then we can… 105 00:19:16.530 --> 00:19:22.980 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): explore what that can feel like in more contained and caring settings. And so. 106 00:19:23.220 --> 00:19:34.559 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): this whole year of exploration together, I'll invite you into those kind of experiential practices of fearlessness, right? Durga, the warrior, 107 00:19:34.990 --> 00:19:49.970 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): is also the shy, the hiding, right? Like, it's not that we're one thing, we're all things. And so, how can we move into those states that we want to play with and explore? 108 00:19:50.580 --> 00:19:55.290 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Okay, so… 109 00:19:56.070 --> 00:20:11.150 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Would anyone like to share their reflections on any of the questions before we move into a bit more of a practice, or just also inviting in any questions, kind of on the container in general? 110 00:20:11.150 --> 00:20:18.089 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Because I know there might be… there might be some. And the one other piece I want to let you all know is our next… 111 00:20:18.880 --> 00:20:20.400 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Office hours. 112 00:20:20.610 --> 00:20:31.320 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): I'm… which is in 2 weeks, on Wednesday. I want to go through the kind of whole exploration of our nervous systems, and then in each office hours, we'll… 113 00:20:31.560 --> 00:20:39.449 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): kind of build our toolkit for how we resource ourselves. So that… that's something just to invite you in to look forward to. 114 00:20:40.050 --> 00:20:47.350 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Know that you… there's, like, that care there, right? You're gonna be held kind of like tending in a garden, like your garden. 115 00:20:48.220 --> 00:20:50.439 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): So, would anyone like to share? 116 00:20:54.290 --> 00:20:57.890 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Out loud, or in the chat. And of course, no one has to. 117 00:21:02.000 --> 00:21:03.100 Franny (they/them): I'm sure. 118 00:21:03.740 --> 00:21:09.370 Franny (they/them): Camera is off, and I'm gonna leave it off, but I don't mind sharing. 119 00:21:10.880 --> 00:21:11.530 Franny (they/them): Wonderful. 120 00:21:11.530 --> 00:21:16.790 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Oh, and Ida, I actually can't see who is sharing, what your name is. 121 00:21:17.680 --> 00:21:18.869 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Say it again? 122 00:21:18.870 --> 00:21:19.600 Franny (they/them): Frann. 123 00:21:19.910 --> 00:21:31.360 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Frannie, wonderful. And Frannie, your, audio is a little bit in and out, so just to… I don't know if there's a way to make sure that it's, like, strong and clear how your Wi-Fi is? 124 00:21:31.520 --> 00:21:36.399 Franny (they/them): Yeah, give me one second, you might be hearing my fan in the background. 125 00:21:36.400 --> 00:21:37.820 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Now you're clear. 126 00:21:38.030 --> 00:21:39.340 Franny (they/them): Oh, okay. 127 00:21:39.340 --> 00:21:39.860 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Yeah. 128 00:21:40.310 --> 00:21:41.190 Franny (they/them): Okay. 129 00:21:41.790 --> 00:21:44.800 Franny (they/them): So, the first question… 130 00:21:46.210 --> 00:21:52.680 Franny (they/them): What in me needs destroying, and the first thing that came to mind was the need to be 131 00:21:52.810 --> 00:21:58.589 Franny (they/them): Tolerable to those who refuse to see my humanity, or those who 132 00:21:58.870 --> 00:22:05.150 Franny (they/them): refuse to co-create emotional safety for me so I can show up as I am. 133 00:22:14.000 --> 00:22:16.470 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Thank you, Fernie. Yeah. 134 00:22:16.860 --> 00:22:21.929 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Celebrating that, and supporting that. Boundaries, the clear no. 135 00:22:22.210 --> 00:22:26.649 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): The sacred no that is an affirmation of your wholeness. 136 00:22:26.960 --> 00:22:29.050 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Your fullness. Yeah. 137 00:22:29.800 --> 00:22:30.810 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Thank you. 138 00:22:36.590 --> 00:22:37.920 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Anyone else? 139 00:22:49.680 --> 00:22:53.949 Margaret Graham she/her: Hi, my name's Margaret. I will share what I wrote. 140 00:22:54.420 --> 00:23:02.829 Margaret Graham she/her: I let go of the fear of what people think of me. I let go of how other people process truth, shame, or guilt. 141 00:23:03.100 --> 00:23:07.560 Margaret Graham she/her: I let go of helping everyone else move through a family secret. 142 00:23:07.900 --> 00:23:13.249 Margaret Graham she/her: The only person I am responsible for during this time of processing and integration is myself. 143 00:23:13.640 --> 00:23:19.999 Margaret Graham she/her: I release a pattern of doubt or fear around my truth so that I can completely heal my inner parts. 144 00:23:20.560 --> 00:23:25.980 Margaret Graham she/her: I need nourishing in my ability to know intuitively my truth. 145 00:23:26.320 --> 00:23:33.229 Margaret Graham she/her: To honor the connection I have with my higher power, who knows my truth and has access to all truths. 146 00:23:33.310 --> 00:23:46.900 Margaret Graham she/her: I am ready to integrate the wisdom of all of my parts and ages, and to know how they felt, and help reparent them so that we are integrated and one, and move forward in life with focus, clarity, strength, and success. 147 00:23:46.910 --> 00:24:04.679 Margaret Graham she/her: My nervous system reflects this by allowing me to feel guilt, shame, and anger, and sadness when I am safe and when it's appropriate, to rest afterwards when I feel emotionally drained, and to work hard in between to secure the future that I want for myself and my family. 148 00:24:05.120 --> 00:24:09.349 Margaret Graham she/her: I work towards using my healing to help other people heal, too. 149 00:24:14.500 --> 00:24:15.910 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Thank you, Margaret. 150 00:24:16.440 --> 00:24:17.660 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Affirming. 151 00:24:17.770 --> 00:24:21.510 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): All of your… Vision and share. 152 00:24:25.120 --> 00:24:25.810 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Mmm. 153 00:24:28.650 --> 00:24:30.710 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): God, I saw someone else. 154 00:24:31.120 --> 00:24:32.380 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Have their hand up. 155 00:24:35.910 --> 00:24:37.370 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Yes, Carolyn? 156 00:24:37.620 --> 00:24:38.480 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Hi. 157 00:24:40.780 --> 00:24:42.670 Caroline (they/she): Hi. 158 00:24:44.300 --> 00:24:50.959 Caroline (they/she): Oh, I just… just want to kind of just honour that last year. Just… I'm just taking a moment of just how… 159 00:24:52.130 --> 00:24:53.650 Caroline (they/she): Deep, that was, really. 160 00:24:55.410 --> 00:25:01.840 Caroline (they/she): Thank you. I was writing about, like. 161 00:25:03.820 --> 00:25:21.560 Caroline (they/she): just for specifics. So, I'm specifically letting go of a memory of a disciplinary, because it was over 10 years ago, and that it was something that I learned my lessons from, that I grew from, and that I can no longer need to anchor. 162 00:25:22.050 --> 00:25:37.429 Caroline (they/she): so much to it, you know, that it was such a long time, I'm now back in practice, back in frontline work, and I'm finding my nervous system still very attached to those memories. So just releasing that, 163 00:25:38.690 --> 00:25:58.300 Caroline (they/she): we all… and just kind of thinking about, like, we all look back on our younger professional selves and see things we'd like to have done differently. That means that we've grown as professionals. If we didn't, we weren't, you know, we wouldn't be evolving. And that life is one long experience of making mistakes, or trying and evolving, and to try and really 164 00:25:58.300 --> 00:25:59.450 Caroline (they/she): Integrate that. 165 00:26:00.050 --> 00:26:03.919 Caroline (they/she): Letting go of looking good at doing the job, and… 166 00:26:04.380 --> 00:26:12.069 Caroline (they/she): letting go of the embarrassment of being slower. I am just thorough. I need to go at the only pace that I can go at. 167 00:26:12.600 --> 00:26:19.949 Caroline (they/she): And being more… the wisdom of just being more rooted in myself, and trusting in my way of doing the job. 168 00:26:20.150 --> 00:26:25.210 Caroline (they/she): And… Yeah, and just feel more grounded. 169 00:26:25.830 --> 00:26:27.789 Caroline (they/she): Thank you for the space to write that. 170 00:26:36.600 --> 00:26:38.329 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Thank you so much. 171 00:26:40.090 --> 00:26:40.860 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Hmm. 172 00:26:50.380 --> 00:26:55.310 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And for folks who are sharing, there's lots of hearts and love. 173 00:26:56.350 --> 00:26:57.620 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): being shared. 174 00:26:58.880 --> 00:27:01.149 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): People are dropping their reactions. 175 00:27:11.890 --> 00:27:13.180 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): R. 176 00:27:13.630 --> 00:27:19.110 Raphaëlle (she/they): I'd like to share, but I couldn't see where to raise the hand. 177 00:27:19.320 --> 00:27:25.120 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Oh, that's okay, it's in… for future, it's under the little heart that says React. 178 00:27:25.440 --> 00:27:26.300 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): So… 179 00:27:26.300 --> 00:27:29.940 Raphaëlle (she/they): Okay, maybe when I… Okay. 180 00:27:30.880 --> 00:27:42.790 Raphaëlle (she/they): Okay. But, yeah, just, the question, about the wisdom ready to be integrated. I'd like to share, that. 181 00:27:43.470 --> 00:27:50.480 Raphaëlle (she/they): Because, I feel at the moment that, 182 00:27:51.720 --> 00:28:11.219 Raphaëlle (she/they): what is ready to be integrated is really trusting the process, and not trying to rush into the process, not trying to, control any outcome in the future, and seeing when I let that go, that things just fall into place, the way they… 183 00:28:11.400 --> 00:28:19.940 Raphaëlle (she/they): Yeah, in the right way, also. And… yeah, letting go of, trying to control what will happen. 184 00:28:20.190 --> 00:28:32.349 Raphaëlle (she/they): Because it only… I mean, to me, it creates mostly fears or anguish about what could happen, but when I let it go, and just be in the present and try to do 185 00:28:32.470 --> 00:28:43.810 Raphaëlle (she/they): just do my best. Then things happen, and, in a great way. So, I'd say that's, the wisdom for me at the moment. 186 00:28:44.400 --> 00:28:45.190 Raphaëlle (she/they): Thank you. 187 00:28:50.370 --> 00:28:52.170 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Thank you, Raphael. 188 00:28:56.460 --> 00:29:10.230 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And I want to just note, folks, in the chat, Naomi, activation for me is being busy, unable to be still, holding tension, living with high adrenaline, that on… nervous system on state. 189 00:29:10.630 --> 00:29:14.640 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Even though when I've cultivated a practice of rest, yeah… 190 00:29:17.570 --> 00:29:26.829 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And Dani Sinan says, self-doubt needs letting go of false beliefs that I am incapable, inexperienced, or not enough. 191 00:29:27.670 --> 00:29:35.900 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And nourished my roots, my soul, my mind, body, and spirit, creating space for abundance, pathways to liberation. 192 00:29:36.040 --> 00:29:44.580 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And what wisdom is ready to be integrated? Ancestral wisdom, experiential wisdom, sacred study, and sacred. 193 00:29:44.760 --> 00:29:46.460 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Experiences. 194 00:29:48.110 --> 00:29:49.420 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And… 195 00:29:49.720 --> 00:30:00.539 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): how our nervous system reflects this arc, leaving space for more reflection here. Yes, can we unpack together what this might look like? Absolutely. 196 00:30:00.700 --> 00:30:08.800 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): I think we'll go there. And then… sorry, we were having a little, 197 00:30:10.920 --> 00:30:16.449 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): We're having a little bit of, conversation in the chat, and there's a lot of things… 198 00:30:16.600 --> 00:30:22.380 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Happening at once, so just naming that, that's… 199 00:30:23.110 --> 00:30:34.789 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): we have the syllabus to support us, and sometimes I'll do a better job, because I'm, like, a… I'm a divergent thinker, in that I'm, like, sort of here, and not always, like. 200 00:30:34.830 --> 00:30:48.160 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): on the details, and so occasionally, this is why part of what I've learned is always have someone here to support me with the logistics. So thank you, Juliana, for being here and for that. 201 00:30:48.190 --> 00:30:55.040 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): So, we actually don't have an office hours call in 2 weeks. On the 8th, we have a call on the 16th. 202 00:30:55.490 --> 00:31:03.940 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And that call is, both with me and Blair Armani, so it'll be a two-hour call. This is for folks in Trauma Informed. 203 00:31:04.080 --> 00:31:19.860 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Yoga, social justice, certification, and there's the syllabus. If you're not in that, and you're just in Yoga class curator, please just reach out to us at, hello at Ignite Be Wealth if you're… if you have questions, so… 204 00:31:20.030 --> 00:31:24.909 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And then also naming that there's… 205 00:31:25.620 --> 00:31:29.949 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): There's an inquiry and attention around, 206 00:31:30.470 --> 00:31:35.319 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Kind of, like, the both-and of being in a space. 207 00:31:35.460 --> 00:31:40.350 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Where we're talking about healing our nervous systems and caring for ourselves. 208 00:31:40.530 --> 00:31:46.490 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): At the same time that there's so much harm happening in the world, and the impacts of that. 209 00:31:46.640 --> 00:31:55.140 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): heightened… are heightened for queer folks, for trans folks, for folks of color, for disabled folks, right? Neurodivergent folks. 210 00:31:55.500 --> 00:31:59.709 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And… So, part of what we're… 211 00:32:00.220 --> 00:32:06.160 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): We're moving into is a time and a way of, like, Holding that tension. 212 00:32:06.370 --> 00:32:13.449 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Where it's on white body folks, folks with privilege, to explore our… 213 00:32:14.650 --> 00:32:26.349 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): privilege, right? And what it can look like to both heal ourselves and our lineages and our families and our communities, while also caring for the impact that we're 214 00:32:26.350 --> 00:32:35.839 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): we may be having inadvertently on other folks, just by not, you know, not being aware of our privilege. And then, for folks of color. 215 00:32:36.210 --> 00:32:37.989 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): For us to… 216 00:32:38.160 --> 00:32:52.579 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): in that way that I was talking about, kind of titrate into, like, in a space like this that's a mixed space, right? What can it look like to center our experiences, and center our pain, and center our joy, and our growth? 217 00:32:52.700 --> 00:32:55.310 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): That's part of the… 218 00:32:55.460 --> 00:33:08.899 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): opportunity for practice, and it is going to be messy, and it is going to be challenging and activating, because these things are, you know, they are that way. And this is, like, I think of Durga with her… 219 00:33:09.070 --> 00:33:16.520 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): her weapon, right? Riding it on a tiger to slay the demon… the demon Maheshwara, who had… 220 00:33:16.830 --> 00:33:27.469 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Taken over and was oppressing the world, the universe, and, like, using up resources for only the privileged few. 221 00:33:27.830 --> 00:33:34.320 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And Durga came in to try to right that imbalance, you know, that… to try to move 222 00:33:34.880 --> 00:33:50.829 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): the universe back into harmony and balance. And she had to take many forms to do that. She took the form of the warrior, she took the form of a, you know, a sweet, innocent princess, she took the form of a fearsome, 223 00:33:51.010 --> 00:33:54.860 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): powerful goddess, the goddess Kali, and… 224 00:33:55.450 --> 00:33:58.339 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): No one gets to tell you… 225 00:33:58.560 --> 00:34:06.060 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And particularly, I'm thinking of for folks of color, right, or folks impacted by systemic oppression, what form 226 00:34:06.280 --> 00:34:10.260 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): You need to take at any given moment, including in a space like this. 227 00:34:10.340 --> 00:34:29.209 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): So, it's that opportunity to care for yourself and get what you need, right? And ask, like, you can message me, you can message Juliana, and we'll do our best to provide that care and that support. You can also, the other thing is, so Juliana and I are both folks of color, and 228 00:34:29.360 --> 00:34:33.310 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Part of the care, and we have another, supportive 229 00:34:33.370 --> 00:34:45.019 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): person in the space to Nicole, who's been in YTTs with me for a long time, right? And we'll set this up a bit more formally, but when we're in the space together, you can always message 230 00:34:45.020 --> 00:34:55.279 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Juliana, Nicole, or I. I'm, since I'm leading the space, may not immediately be able to respond, but you can always move into a breakout room. We can move you into a room with a supportive 231 00:34:55.320 --> 00:35:05.389 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Space holder, so you have that time and space to process, because activations are being activated, or being, 232 00:35:06.050 --> 00:35:08.930 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): triggered, right? That's part of… 233 00:35:09.100 --> 00:35:15.000 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): being human, and part of being alive, it's not that we can avoid those things. 234 00:35:15.260 --> 00:35:22.540 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And, in a way, I think part of what it is to do the work of trauma-informed work for social justice is to 235 00:35:22.770 --> 00:35:33.820 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): acknowledge that we are going to be activated, and then how can we move through it, right? And, so I'll just pause there to see if anyone has, 236 00:35:34.610 --> 00:35:35.540 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Yeah. 237 00:35:36.160 --> 00:35:37.450 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): has any. 238 00:35:38.600 --> 00:35:40.299 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): comments or questions? 239 00:35:50.520 --> 00:35:52.870 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Yes, the chart. 240 00:35:55.250 --> 00:36:00.920 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Like, moving through, right, our… our nervous systems, and I actually… so… 241 00:36:01.170 --> 00:36:04.459 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): I'm like, in this moment, I kind of want to, 242 00:36:04.760 --> 00:36:07.499 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): I want to do two things. I want to practice… 243 00:36:08.000 --> 00:36:14.000 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And I actually want to share a little more about the nervous system, because I think it might support us. 244 00:36:14.240 --> 00:36:20.030 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): in… This movement, and this learning, and this, growth. 245 00:36:20.390 --> 00:36:35.830 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And this time, so let's move into a practice, and for that invitation, you know, it'll be a seated practice, but of course, you can always do it lying down, standing, you have… you have those options. 246 00:36:37.170 --> 00:36:41.780 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And… We'll begin… 247 00:36:45.670 --> 00:36:53.559 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): it'll be a gentle practice, also, just naming, but there will be an opportunity for a little bit of… of heat, right? So… 248 00:36:54.040 --> 00:37:00.659 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Beginning with expanding, stretching our arms up any amount away from our bodies. 249 00:37:00.830 --> 00:37:15.439 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And then, doing the same with our legs. So for me, if I'm sitting in a chair, that means I'm sitting my legs out to the side, so my legs are kind of, like, in a V, kind of like my arms are in a V. And then wiggling your fingers and your toes. 250 00:37:17.490 --> 00:37:20.440 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Inhaling, expanding. 251 00:37:21.240 --> 00:37:34.390 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Exhale, gentle forward fold, so like a wide leg forward fold coming down over your body. An option to, if you're sitting, maybe lean to one side to stretch through. 252 00:37:34.510 --> 00:37:43.749 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): One side and then the other. If you're standing, same option. If you're laying or sitting on the ground, perhaps it's like you're leaning over into 253 00:37:43.930 --> 00:37:48.599 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): A stretch along your leg, alongside your own. 254 00:37:49.050 --> 00:37:50.670 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): One leg or the other. 255 00:37:58.610 --> 00:38:04.420 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And we'll connect to the power of Durga through the mantra. 256 00:38:04.650 --> 00:38:09.690 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): the seed sound for Durga is doom. Doom. Kind of like… 257 00:38:10.450 --> 00:38:22.359 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): the heartbeat. So, on your next inhale, coming up, and you might drum, right, as on your own body, maybe even on your heart, as you say, and we'll say it 9 times. 258 00:38:22.800 --> 00:38:24.190 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Doom. 259 00:38:24.530 --> 00:38:25.940 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Doom. 260 00:38:26.240 --> 00:38:27.550 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Doom. 261 00:38:27.770 --> 00:38:29.190 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Doom. 262 00:38:29.420 --> 00:38:30.710 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Doom. 263 00:38:31.020 --> 00:38:33.970 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Doom… Doom. 264 00:38:34.240 --> 00:38:35.540 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Doom. 265 00:38:35.830 --> 00:38:37.200 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Doom. 266 00:38:37.510 --> 00:38:46.620 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Inhale… Exhale… And her full mantra. 267 00:38:47.030 --> 00:38:54.159 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): is… Translates to, say, salutations, respect, honor to the goddess. 268 00:38:54.650 --> 00:38:55.950 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): to Durga. 269 00:38:56.350 --> 00:39:01.050 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Namaha. 270 00:39:01.180 --> 00:39:09.340 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And you can repeat that, if you would like, in your mind, in your heart, to the goddess, the warrior within. 271 00:39:10.780 --> 00:39:15.040 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Maha. 272 00:39:15.890 --> 00:39:20.529 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Oum Dum Durga Maha. 273 00:39:21.510 --> 00:39:25.910 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Oum Dum… namaha. 274 00:39:29.970 --> 00:39:35.420 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): No… Letting that Sacred Heartbeat continue. 275 00:39:35.940 --> 00:39:42.779 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Perhaps you like the seed syllable DOOM, and you can let that repeat. 276 00:39:43.240 --> 00:39:49.769 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Is you move, and with your breath, or maybe it's a word, like power, or fearlessness. 277 00:39:50.490 --> 00:39:52.139 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): We're grounding… 278 00:39:53.900 --> 00:40:03.649 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And we'll inhale into a cat and cow shape, so inhaling, arching your back, sending your head up. 279 00:40:03.790 --> 00:40:11.099 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Exhale, rounding any amount in your chair, on the floor, as you stand. 280 00:40:12.020 --> 00:40:16.460 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Inhale, doom. Exhale, doom. 281 00:40:16.580 --> 00:40:23.050 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): I really like… This seed sound, because it anchors me… 282 00:40:23.590 --> 00:40:35.240 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): In the power of my heart, the goddess or form, of… Empathy, of compassion. 283 00:40:36.520 --> 00:40:39.080 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): That flame at the heart. 284 00:40:41.050 --> 00:40:43.700 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And as you move and stretch. 285 00:40:44.530 --> 00:40:52.000 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Letting your shoulders open, widen, letting your heart open as much as you feel comfortable. 286 00:40:52.160 --> 00:40:59.959 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And then as you exhale, widening your shoulder blades, stretching the back of your heart. 287 00:41:00.950 --> 00:41:04.399 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Inhale now, shoulder blades come together. 288 00:41:04.640 --> 00:41:11.719 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Kind of like you're hugging the back of your heart, and I have my hands up like cactus arms, you might like to do this. 289 00:41:11.960 --> 00:41:16.430 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Exhale, coming forward, a gentle hug, I'm rounding. 290 00:41:17.040 --> 00:41:18.730 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Inhale. 291 00:41:22.470 --> 00:41:24.460 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): 1, 2, 3 more like this. 292 00:41:27.910 --> 00:41:32.000 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): I'm exhaling with fire, with power through my… 293 00:41:32.110 --> 00:41:37.470 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Mouth, you can breathe in and out, if you would like, through your mouth or through your nose. 294 00:41:45.220 --> 00:41:55.950 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Now, we'll move with our arms in this cactus, and if you want to take a moment just to roll your shoulders back and down, kind of keep your, 295 00:41:56.280 --> 00:42:12.469 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): the length of your neck open. This can be a little tricky. If you're sitting in a chair, option to keep your feet on the ground, or lift your feet off the earth, or tap your toes on the ground, because that engages our core. And then exhale, twisting to one side. 296 00:42:12.750 --> 00:42:23.540 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Inhale, back to center. Exhale, twist to the other side. So, sometimes people are under the illusion that chair yoga is not… 297 00:42:23.710 --> 00:42:34.560 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): power yoga, where it can't be heated, but you'll see, as you breathe, I'm already getting out of breath. Breathing, moving with your breath, inhale. 298 00:42:35.170 --> 00:42:40.439 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Center. Exhale, twisting to one side. Inhale. 299 00:42:40.570 --> 00:42:42.770 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Can raise a lot of heat. 300 00:42:42.910 --> 00:42:53.010 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And you can keep your hands right here, or if you'd like, stretch them out so they're long. Inhale, they come back to cactus. Exhale, they stretch out for even more heat. 301 00:42:53.330 --> 00:43:00.309 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): So this, for the… whatever you wrote or were reflecting on of what you would like to let go. 302 00:43:00.470 --> 00:43:10.400 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): during these heated movements can be a powerful time to imagine you're, like, sending it out, breathing it out. We'll do just one more on each side. 303 00:43:12.710 --> 00:43:23.350 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Releasing, inhale, feet come down to the earth, arms come up towards the sky, stretching your arms back behind you, clasping them in… 304 00:43:23.600 --> 00:43:28.629 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): A bind behind your back, or just reaching or placing your hands. 305 00:43:29.030 --> 00:43:34.979 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Whatever feels supportive to you to stretch through your shoulders. 306 00:43:35.890 --> 00:43:39.169 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): The part of us that we'd really been activating. 307 00:43:39.490 --> 00:43:43.730 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Inhale, lengthen through your spine, exhale. 308 00:43:43.980 --> 00:43:48.000 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): A gentle forward fold, any amount towards the earth. 309 00:44:08.590 --> 00:44:12.170 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Inhale, coming back up. 310 00:44:14.970 --> 00:44:30.869 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Exhaling, coming into your version of Warrior 2 now. So, if you're seated, that can be with your feet on the earth, maybe sending one leg back to the side, one knee bent, and then arms… 311 00:44:31.000 --> 00:44:35.040 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Oh, let me move my… Candle? 312 00:44:35.500 --> 00:44:43.120 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Arms out, flipping your palms up to drop your shoulders away from your ears. 313 00:44:43.610 --> 00:44:50.220 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Feeling your power here, your fire, right? Om, Dum, Durgae, Namaha. 314 00:44:52.160 --> 00:45:12.000 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And if you'd like, you can flow here. Exhale, forward, folding forward, right or left forearm on your right or left knee. Right or left arm, depending on which side you're on, back up behind you. Inhale, Warrior II. Exhale, reverse that Warrior. 315 00:45:12.320 --> 00:45:18.470 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Any amount that feels good, moving with your own breath in this fluid motion. 316 00:45:18.970 --> 00:45:28.219 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): We're in that middle space of creation, right? What does it look like to play, to be creative, to move our energy? 317 00:45:32.060 --> 00:45:38.409 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): One more on each side, or flowing as your own body needs and wants. 318 00:45:39.680 --> 00:45:54.909 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And exhale, hands come down, maybe pushing into the earth or into your own body as you switch sides. So if you're in the chair, I'm pushing down onto the arms of my chair, and then lifting up, sending the other leg back, other knee bent. 319 00:45:55.790 --> 00:46:02.539 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): I'm taking a moment to really anchor into Virabhadrasana, Warrior II, on this side. 320 00:46:02.960 --> 00:46:14.830 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Exhaling, palms face up. Also, a gesture of surrender, right? Of, I trust, I trust this process. Exhale, palms can flip over. 321 00:46:14.830 --> 00:46:30.700 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Forward fold, front arm on your front thigh, back arm up towards the sky. Inhale, Warrior II, Virabhadrasana. Exhale, Viparita, Virabhadrasana, Reverse Warrior, moving with your own breath. 322 00:46:42.120 --> 00:46:49.960 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Using the many tools of breath, Movement, mantra, practice. 323 00:46:55.260 --> 00:46:57.789 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): One more each side. 324 00:47:06.370 --> 00:47:08.550 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And then inhale. 325 00:47:08.860 --> 00:47:14.179 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Reverse… Exhale, hands come down. 326 00:47:14.380 --> 00:47:22.460 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Finding your Tadasana, your mountain, whether that's sitting or standing, Lying down. 327 00:47:24.370 --> 00:47:26.380 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Deep breath in. 328 00:47:27.360 --> 00:47:29.190 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Full breath out. 329 00:47:30.730 --> 00:47:34.869 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And imagining that your nervous system, your body. 330 00:47:35.510 --> 00:47:41.350 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): your soma, right? Like, all of… all of what you are. 331 00:47:41.980 --> 00:47:44.950 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): is… like a garden. 332 00:47:45.810 --> 00:47:53.609 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And as we practice together, you're tending this garden, you're caring for the garden within. 333 00:47:55.980 --> 00:47:59.250 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And the garden of your community. 334 00:48:02.630 --> 00:48:09.939 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): If your garden is… Like, mine is, right now, like, a little… 335 00:48:10.520 --> 00:48:15.469 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): You know, in the fullness of things, that my inner garden is like… 336 00:48:15.930 --> 00:48:22.410 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): It's growing a little wild. There's weeds, there's seeds, there's, you know, there's not a lot of order. 337 00:48:24.900 --> 00:48:27.400 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Acknowledging that, noticing that. 338 00:48:27.600 --> 00:48:32.989 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Noticing the quality of your garden within. If your garden is… 339 00:48:33.220 --> 00:48:40.860 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): more barren right now, in a fallow time, in a time of not really a lot of growth, maybe feeling a bit… 340 00:48:42.330 --> 00:48:43.690 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Stagnant. 341 00:48:43.990 --> 00:48:45.180 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Empty. 342 00:48:45.830 --> 00:48:48.039 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Acknowledging and noticing that. 343 00:48:49.460 --> 00:48:57.039 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): There's nothing wrong with these states, they're all part of the way the natural world cares for and tends. 344 00:48:58.560 --> 00:49:00.579 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): A healthy ecosystem. 345 00:49:01.050 --> 00:49:06.020 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): So we each have… We all have this garden. 346 00:49:07.000 --> 00:49:08.270 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): within us. 347 00:49:09.220 --> 00:49:18.800 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And it… Has its own form of balance, its own form of… Harmony. 348 00:49:25.890 --> 00:49:29.979 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): As we explore and learn and notice. 349 00:49:32.240 --> 00:49:38.340 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): our kind of inner gardener, right? That's neuroception, the part of us that can… 350 00:49:38.480 --> 00:49:46.499 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): sense safety or threat. It's like a special kind of caretaker taking care of you. 351 00:49:46.720 --> 00:49:48.259 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Moment to moment. 352 00:50:01.900 --> 00:50:10.000 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And sometimes… Those caretakers are… Responding to past storms. 353 00:50:10.200 --> 00:50:11.990 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Past challenges. 354 00:50:15.480 --> 00:50:18.670 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): I'm checking for if right now we're… 355 00:50:20.700 --> 00:50:23.629 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Able to bloom, or able to rest. 356 00:50:25.610 --> 00:50:30.970 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): So, just caring for, knowing that you have this team, this inner… 357 00:50:31.470 --> 00:50:36.410 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Like, garden team, caring for your own nervous system. 358 00:50:38.020 --> 00:50:41.859 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): A system that's as old… Millions of years old. 359 00:50:43.380 --> 00:50:47.460 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): That we get to steward, and it is interconnected. 360 00:50:49.300 --> 00:50:56.900 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): with… The rhythm and the nervous system of the soma, of the whole. 361 00:51:02.500 --> 00:51:04.469 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): You are not separate. 362 00:51:04.600 --> 00:51:06.159 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): We are not separate. 363 00:51:18.030 --> 00:51:23.370 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Perhaps anchoring in a word, or a phrase, or maybe even… 364 00:51:25.100 --> 00:51:37.319 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): A particular quality from your garden, and whether you actually see it, right, or you're just bringing it forward, like, maybe it feels really good to… 365 00:51:39.780 --> 00:51:44.620 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Be a fallow field, getting watered by rain. 366 00:51:45.180 --> 00:51:46.999 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): With a cloudy sky. 367 00:51:47.450 --> 00:51:49.749 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Maybe it feels nourishing. 368 00:51:50.210 --> 00:51:53.800 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): To be full of flowers, blooming in the spring. 369 00:51:55.330 --> 00:52:04.579 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Maybe it feels nourishing to be like, yeah, I'm a wild forest right now. There is no order, and there does not need to be. 370 00:52:11.870 --> 00:52:23.339 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Exhaling… As you're ready, coming… Into Final… shape of practice. 371 00:52:23.980 --> 00:52:28.279 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): A Bhayaprada mudra, one hand up and one hand out. 372 00:52:28.480 --> 00:52:34.789 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): feeling… The strength of your boundaries. The strength of your compassion. 373 00:52:37.850 --> 00:52:43.670 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): When you're ready, lifting left and right hand up to meet at heart center. 374 00:52:45.050 --> 00:52:48.809 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Deep breath in… And full breath out. 375 00:52:51.310 --> 00:52:53.700 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Exhaling, gentle bow. 376 00:52:54.240 --> 00:52:57.049 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Perhaps, as you open your eyes… 377 00:52:57.230 --> 00:53:00.349 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Gazing at your candle, if you have it. 378 00:53:00.580 --> 00:53:07.030 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Or around you, at the lights, taking in form and color and shape. 379 00:53:15.770 --> 00:53:20.069 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And so I'll just… Share a little bit. 380 00:53:28.210 --> 00:53:29.800 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Invite you to… 381 00:53:31.390 --> 00:53:37.659 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): To share in the chat, if there's anything that arose in the practice, anything that you noticed. 382 00:53:38.320 --> 00:53:39.700 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And… 383 00:53:39.830 --> 00:53:46.110 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): I want to share, and I'll kind of go deeper into this when we meet on the 16th, but… 384 00:53:47.460 --> 00:53:49.140 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Just begin. 385 00:53:49.470 --> 00:53:51.560 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): With this, 386 00:54:02.290 --> 00:54:03.720 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Can you see this? 387 00:54:04.770 --> 00:54:05.450 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Yeah. 388 00:54:07.350 --> 00:54:15.139 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): So… just to begin thinking of our nervous system not as a machine, right? A lot of the… 389 00:54:15.360 --> 00:54:27.049 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): the ways that I've… when I've done trauma-informed work, talk about our nervous systems as a machine, that we never got the manual, right, for how to operate this machine or drive this car, but… 390 00:54:27.430 --> 00:54:45.899 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): I don't resonate with that, because I'm not a machine, you know? Like, I'm a wild garden, and I'm sometimes, like, a big old storm, and, you know, it's… from an Ayurvedic and a yogic perspective, the natural metaphors that do not stigmatize 391 00:54:46.520 --> 00:54:49.620 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Are much more… supportive. 392 00:54:50.510 --> 00:54:54.469 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And so our nervous system needs, and this is what yoga gives us. 393 00:54:54.640 --> 00:55:09.080 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): A few things, not too much, right, to regulate, to help us harmonize. Context, like a clarity of seeing, viveka, which is what so much of the practice supports and invites us into. 394 00:55:09.650 --> 00:55:12.360 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And then… Choice? 395 00:55:13.210 --> 00:55:24.859 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): the ability to choose, and you'll notice in my cueing, and we'll get much deeper into this, right? But it's not just, like, if you would like, or… I mean, words are really important, but it's also… 396 00:55:25.510 --> 00:55:40.850 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): how are we creating a context for sovereignty, for ourselves, and for our students, especially in a time when there's so much in the world? I mean, it's not new, but there's so much that tries to keep us small, compliant. 397 00:55:41.820 --> 00:55:49.069 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And then connection, huge. The heart of what yoga is. We are always already interconnected. 398 00:55:49.890 --> 00:55:55.669 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And so trauma-informed, healing-centered yoga aims to give us all of those things. 399 00:55:55.880 --> 00:55:58.740 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Context, choice, and connection. 400 00:56:01.370 --> 00:56:05.120 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And so our nervous system is like a living garden. 401 00:56:05.870 --> 00:56:13.429 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): It shapes our thoughts, our sensations, our behaviors, and our relationships, right? And it changes. 402 00:56:13.650 --> 00:56:15.470 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): With how we care for it. 403 00:56:16.400 --> 00:56:19.019 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And so we'll continue exploring. 404 00:56:19.370 --> 00:56:34.039 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): what it might look like to tend our nervous systems with this more natural metaphor, this more natural way of being. But I'll just move to, say, like, when we feel 405 00:56:34.410 --> 00:56:40.240 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): out of balance. That's dysregulation, right? And dysregulation can show up 406 00:56:40.400 --> 00:56:55.460 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Or disharmony, also, I think I like that word better, in so many ways. But also, it's not a failure. It doesn't mean there's something wrong with us, right? When plants close down in winter, animals hibernate. 407 00:56:55.600 --> 00:57:03.629 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): It's an adaptive shape, and it isn't wrong. Might not be comfortable, but it's not wrong. 408 00:57:04.540 --> 00:57:06.130 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And so… 409 00:57:06.280 --> 00:57:18.090 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): what we'll be exploring together through this journey is that our nervous system is always caring for us, right? And so we'll learn how we can tend it together. 410 00:57:19.580 --> 00:57:21.229 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And I'll stop sharing there. 411 00:57:21.930 --> 00:57:23.980 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Caroline, yes. 412 00:57:28.190 --> 00:57:31.289 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And also just noting that we are at… 413 00:57:32.650 --> 00:57:37.100 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): At time, in one minute. So, just invitation to… 414 00:57:37.820 --> 00:57:42.759 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Carolyn, to keep your share brief, or if you have a question, I may. 415 00:57:42.760 --> 00:57:43.599 Caroline (they/she): Yeah, it's just… 416 00:57:44.250 --> 00:57:44.960 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Yeah. 417 00:57:45.550 --> 00:57:52.920 Caroline (they/she): It was just a really quick question. Could… could you just say a little bit more about context? I didn't quite understand what that meant. 418 00:57:55.230 --> 00:58:04.689 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Yeah, so… Context is, like, understanding, right? Understanding the… 419 00:58:08.440 --> 00:58:15.630 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): like, the rules of a game. Like, when I go, sometimes I have a 12-year-old to play with my kiddo. 420 00:58:15.750 --> 00:58:20.350 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): we'll be, like, jumping right in in the middle of the game, and I notice I feel… 421 00:58:20.420 --> 00:58:36.010 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): a lot of those feelings that I listed for dysregulation or disharmony. I'm like, I don't understand what's happening, I don't know what the rules are, I'm not really sure, and it's a game, right? So there's a foundation of safety with my kiddo, where I can, like, okay, can we pause? Can… 422 00:58:36.010 --> 00:58:53.960 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): But so much in my life, and I don't know if anyone else can relate to this, I feel like I'm thrown into a game where I don't understand the rules, or the rules are actually, like, stacked against me, or they're not the same for me and someone else. You know, for example, as a woman, as a person of color, as a queer person. 423 00:58:54.150 --> 00:58:59.680 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And so, context is… understanding the… 424 00:58:59.720 --> 00:59:19.280 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): like, what the situation is, and also those systemic issues that may be impacting some of us differently than others, right? Can feel so confusing to not know, and so empowering to know, even when the rules are not equal and not fair. 425 00:59:19.410 --> 00:59:21.500 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): I hope that, 426 00:59:21.550 --> 00:59:32.330 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Yeah, I hope that helps. Yes, we will share the slideshow, a link to the slideshow. Let me actually… I'm not gonna share it yet. 427 00:59:32.330 --> 00:59:45.050 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And I'll tell you why, because I'm in the process of completing it, so I want to share it, when it's a little bit more complete, and on October 16th, when we go through, more of it, so just, 428 00:59:45.620 --> 00:59:50.869 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Just letting you know that it'll be coming to you in a little while. 429 00:59:51.070 --> 00:59:56.230 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Cause… and part of that is because It's an evolving… 430 00:59:56.700 --> 01:00:06.179 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): understanding, so I want to just honor that space for it to… the metaphor to kind of unfold, and me be able to explain it clearly. 431 01:00:10.230 --> 01:00:28.940 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): The last piece, I want to invite you to, especially if you have a candle lit, right, take the flame, and if you don't, I'll be sending you. So, bringing in that light, that insight, so sending that to you, and if you have one of your own, you can send it here, like a self-blessing. 432 01:00:29.360 --> 01:00:30.760 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And then… 433 01:00:31.110 --> 01:00:47.349 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Imagine that you're taking the light and the insight, because we practice for ourselves, of course, in personal liberation, but yoga is a path of collective liberation, and so calling to mind and heart a person, a place, a community, an ecosystem that needs care, and then sending. 434 01:00:47.710 --> 01:00:50.230 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): The light. The insight. 435 01:00:50.570 --> 01:00:51.470 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Ow. 436 01:00:53.060 --> 01:00:55.099 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And then, when you're ready… 437 01:00:55.440 --> 01:01:00.190 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Blowing out your candle, if it's time for you to do that, just to ensure safety. 438 01:01:05.410 --> 01:01:08.900 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): It's taking your water, if you have it. 439 01:01:10.500 --> 01:01:19.140 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And if you don't, that's okay, you can visualize it. Dipping your right finger into the water right, ring finger. 440 01:01:23.340 --> 01:01:30.540 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): As a connection to the earth, and you can place that on your forehead, on your third eye, crown, or your heart. 441 01:01:31.640 --> 01:01:41.760 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): You can also, if you would like, whisper words into your water, and then drink that water through the day. So you might whisper in, like. 442 01:01:42.130 --> 01:01:47.430 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): I'm bringing, like, I'm whispering to myself, I'm bringing strength, courage. 443 01:01:48.620 --> 01:01:49.870 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Compassion. 444 01:01:51.710 --> 01:01:55.130 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And then you have… This to take with you. 445 01:01:58.930 --> 01:02:04.449 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And as you receive, Letting that fill every cell. 446 01:02:04.690 --> 01:02:09.490 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Thank you so much for your presence. Thank you so much for your practice. 447 01:02:10.820 --> 01:02:16.520 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Well, invite us to unmute and to say goodbye, and then I'll see you on the 16th. 448 01:02:16.960 --> 01:02:30.199 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): See you all soon. So, October 16th is our next gathering, and we'll begin with a wonderful exploring Courageous conversations across difference with Blair Armani, and then we'll move into. 449 01:02:30.300 --> 01:02:32.300 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Exploring our nervous systems more. 450 01:02:33.300 --> 01:02:34.650 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): See you all soon! 451 01:02:34.650 --> 01:02:36.350 Nichole BPN (she/her): Thank you, bye! 452 01:02:36.350 --> 01:02:36.980 Lori Baker: You… 453 01:02:36.980 --> 01:02:38.310 Katherine Sorensen: Thank you. 454 01:02:38.310 --> 01:02:40.550 Raphaëlle (she/they): Thank you, bye-bye. 455 01:02:40.790 --> 01:02:42.340 Amanda (she/they): Thank you. Bye-bye. 456 01:02:42.640 --> 01:02:43.200 Karen O'Lone: Dude. 457 01:02:43.200 --> 01:02:44.750 juliamoore: Thank you, bye.