WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:04.780 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And wishing everyone a happy Shivaratri 2 00:00:05.030 --> 00:00:30.039 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): today tonight. So this is like a very auspicious day for us to be gathering and practicing together, so welcoming, welcoming us into that, and would love to just invite you to put in the chat. You know anything about how you are in this moment. I have a little practice for us 3 00:00:30.320 --> 00:00:38.750 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): to connect a little bit to Shivatri and then to reflect. And 4 00:00:40.760 --> 00:00:45.302 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): but I wanna just begin with hearing how you are. And also, if there's anything that you 5 00:00:45.680 --> 00:00:54.110 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): need or would like today, I've had one of those days that's been like. 6 00:00:56.590 --> 00:01:15.189 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): like, you know, I often do a practice where it's like moving forward, moving backwards. Something pulled you off to the side like it's been like the off sides kind of day, so I'm very grateful to yes, all over the place, feeling you. And so I'm just grateful to be in practice together, and also 7 00:01:15.820 --> 00:01:26.819 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): I was able to do my own practice. That's always really important to me as a teacher, to practice myself before coming to hold space. So I got to do that as well. 8 00:01:27.030 --> 00:01:34.250 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And yeah, just taking a moment if anyone else would like to share share. 9 00:01:34.820 --> 00:01:37.830 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Yeah, lots of big changes 10 00:01:38.230 --> 00:01:44.239 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): drawn to some presence and grounding, more focused and energized than you have in a while. Oh, that's great 11 00:01:44.650 --> 00:01:48.280 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): and welcome, Bonnie, as you're coming in. 12 00:01:49.300 --> 00:01:52.449 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Yeah, welcome welcome. And so 13 00:01:54.410 --> 00:02:09.190 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): today we'll be practicing a little bit for Shivatri. And so to begin, you know, the the primary way to sort of celebrate celebrate Shivatri is really to practice mana, to practice silence. 14 00:02:09.250 --> 00:02:34.159 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): so I'll guide, and I'll talk for a while. It won't like be the beginning. You'll be like, wait, where's the silence? But we will get to the silence, and we'll have some time, you know, a little longer than we usually do online in silence together, and then we'll move out of that into either journaling or some creative writing, and I'll guide you. 15 00:02:34.160 --> 00:02:39.461 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): So any before I begin, bonnie just I was checking in with folks, and 16 00:02:39.980 --> 00:02:50.509 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): the general kind of vibe is like a little all over the place, but drawn to presence and grounding. Is there anything that's going on for you that you want to share anything that you need 17 00:02:50.610 --> 00:02:51.600 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): today. 18 00:02:53.177 --> 00:02:59.530 Bonnie@YogaConnexus: That sounds great. Yeah. You know, things that have been coming up for me are just you know. 19 00:03:00.240 --> 00:03:15.099 Bonnie@YogaConnexus: kind of feeling like my white privilege, and how these things are affecting my friends of color first, st and just wondering, like holding space for them. And am I doing it right? I have no idea. So. 20 00:03:15.350 --> 00:03:15.995 Bonnie@YogaConnexus: yeah. 21 00:03:16.640 --> 00:03:26.639 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Yeah, yeah, thank you for naming that. And you know, just reflecting on like, the power of allyship. 22 00:03:28.150 --> 00:03:38.300 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): is so intense, because, of course it's like that question is, oh, often there for me as well like. Am I doing it right? Am I doing enough? 23 00:03:38.500 --> 00:03:39.970 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And 24 00:03:40.840 --> 00:03:49.330 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): it's so powerful that you're there, you know, and that you're so it's okay, like we don't have to do it perfectly. 25 00:03:50.370 --> 00:03:54.850 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): But being there is, I think, so valuable. 26 00:03:55.170 --> 00:04:10.519 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): I'll just share, Bonnie, because I'm raising that that question up I was reflecting on, because I have friends thinking about moving away from the Us right now, and totally understandable right? It's like, why do I not feel like 27 00:04:10.950 --> 00:04:17.459 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): why is that not calling me, you know? And and I think there's a few reasons. And one is because 28 00:04:19.670 --> 00:04:30.670 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): I'm not actually, personally directly yet so impacted. And I can still be really useful. Right? So it's like, Okay. 29 00:04:30.820 --> 00:04:38.202 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): acknowledge the privilege, the great privilege that I have, and then my usefulness right? 30 00:04:38.940 --> 00:05:08.270 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And and I think there's something to that of like the not not that people who leave are running away, but for me in my positionality, for me to avoid would be right like. There's no need for me to leave. I can be useful. And then I had the second reflection of Well, am I just like addicted or attracted to like struggle? And and I think that's a really important question to ask 31 00:05:08.876 --> 00:05:12.390 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): and the answer is, you know. 32 00:05:13.410 --> 00:05:38.229 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): I I think it's like the commitment to the Bodhisattva vow right like as long as space remains, as long as sentient beings remain. May I to remain to dispel the suffering of the world? And I'll find that the full boat and put it in later. I think it's like, perhaps reframing for myself, like it's not really addiction to struggle. It's like commitment to 33 00:05:38.300 --> 00:05:48.075 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): to service and to uplift so. And that includes like not doing it perfectly. So I'm glad you you brought that in 34 00:05:48.670 --> 00:05:49.930 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): because 35 00:05:50.520 --> 00:06:12.593 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): that also, though, doesn't mean we don't get to take the time for recharging and for self care, whatever our positionality, right like, we're going to be more supportive to others as long when we take the spiritual time, when we take the amount of the silent time, whether it's moments or weeks, or years or months, you know. And and so 36 00:06:13.120 --> 00:06:15.809 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): we have a direct relationship to 37 00:06:15.920 --> 00:06:26.699 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): like the biggest self that helps us determine what that feels like and looks like. And even if someone else is like, Oh, no, I think you shouldn't do that. It's okay, like, you have that direct relationship. 38 00:06:28.330 --> 00:06:30.470 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Yeah, thank you. 39 00:06:32.533 --> 00:06:35.920 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Okay, just gonna take a sip of water 40 00:06:37.430 --> 00:06:39.959 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): inviting you to do the same. If you have some. 41 00:06:45.760 --> 00:06:46.930 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Hmm! 42 00:06:48.980 --> 00:06:51.039 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Vicki is joining us. 43 00:06:52.690 --> 00:06:59.750 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): So welcome, Nikki. And just I'm gonna say folks names Alda Aj. 44 00:07:00.420 --> 00:07:02.600 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Bonnie Carly 45 00:07:02.870 --> 00:07:23.529 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Nikki welcome. I was just saying, Happy Maha Shivatri. It's a very auspicious day for practice. So it's such a blessing that ours today. And we're gonna we're about to move into some. I'll share, so I'll talk. But we'll also move into some silent practice. 46 00:07:24.250 --> 00:07:36.060 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): so inviting us to bring our hands together, and if you've got other things like tabs open or things to do, just letting them move to the side. We'll probably practice for about 20 ish 47 00:07:36.180 --> 00:07:46.570 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): or so minutes. Letting yourself really have that time and space for silence for yourself. 48 00:07:47.060 --> 00:07:52.950 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): so, rubbing your hands together, generating some heat, some light, some energy. 49 00:07:53.360 --> 00:07:58.869 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): and then 1st stretching up and expanding your hands into the world. 50 00:08:01.020 --> 00:08:17.940 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): and then, if you'd like creating a little like a bubble around you, imagining a bubble like whatever metaphor feels supportive, a bubble or womb, or cave, or kind of zone of peace, a zone of silence. 51 00:08:18.900 --> 00:08:24.620 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): and maybe your hands are moving in front of you to the sides or behind. 52 00:08:30.160 --> 00:08:42.729 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Maybe it's helpful. Instead of envisioning like a small place, to envision yourself on the mountaintop, Shiva sits on the top of Kailasha the mountain. And what's now? Tibet. 53 00:08:43.100 --> 00:08:48.909 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Indeed, practice. And so when you feel like you've created that space. 54 00:08:49.660 --> 00:08:52.300 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): rubbing your hands together one more time 55 00:08:53.130 --> 00:08:56.090 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): and bringing them over your eyes. 56 00:08:56.680 --> 00:09:00.500 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): so letting your palms cup your eyes. 57 00:09:01.310 --> 00:09:06.869 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): letting your eyes rest in the deep stillness and darkness. 58 00:09:08.020 --> 00:09:09.980 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): If that feels supportive. 59 00:09:26.657 --> 00:09:33.820 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): inhale, and arms can come down, but gaze can be soft or eyes can be closed. 60 00:09:33.940 --> 00:09:40.020 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): rocking just a little bit, maybe forward and back, left and right. 61 00:09:45.580 --> 00:09:50.010 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): finding your place of inner stillness. 62 00:09:53.390 --> 00:10:05.490 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And Shiva is the Adi Yogi, the destroyer of illusion, bearing the way for new beginnings. 63 00:10:07.050 --> 00:10:12.159 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And there are many stories of Shiva. One is that 64 00:10:12.310 --> 00:10:23.549 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): he and Parvati were wed. They were married on this night, symbolizing the harmony of Shakti and Shiva, the harmony of energy 65 00:10:24.010 --> 00:10:25.700 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): and consciousness. 66 00:10:30.790 --> 00:10:41.080 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And so, as you feel your body move, maybe letting it be like a rhythm. Right? The there's also Shiva's cosmic dance, the tend of a 67 00:10:42.310 --> 00:10:50.709 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): this dance of destruction and renewal. And so I'm noticing my body just wanting to spiral a little bit in one direction. 68 00:10:51.060 --> 00:10:54.190 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): We'll have time to spiral the other way. 69 00:10:56.710 --> 00:11:05.179 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): So the story goes that long ago, when the world was filled with suffering and ego driven chaos. 70 00:11:05.870 --> 00:11:15.280 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Maybe not so long ago the gods and sages really sought and prayed for liberation. 71 00:11:15.470 --> 00:11:45.140 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): and Shiva, in his wisdom. He was deep in practice, the story goes, you know, it's like eons, like hundreds, tens and hundreds of thousands of years, and he arose from his meditation and began to dance. And so, as you're moving, maybe spiraling the other way, maybe letting an arm come across your body or a leg if it feels good to lift up your legs, move in one direction and the other. 72 00:11:47.420 --> 00:11:52.860 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): and with each movement he destroyed illusion 73 00:11:53.640 --> 00:12:01.549 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): and ignorance and suffering, and allowed space for new creation. 74 00:12:05.210 --> 00:12:07.389 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): letting your body move. 75 00:12:12.620 --> 00:12:20.780 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): and because his dance was not just a dance of destruction alone. It was a dance of harmony, of balance. 76 00:12:20.880 --> 00:12:39.810 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Invite you in your movement to allow for one hand to come up in a Biaparta mudra, so at one hand out to offer peace, to offer calm, and then one foot can lift opposite foot doesn't matter which to invite freedom, right liberation 77 00:12:40.340 --> 00:12:48.490 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): and then exhale and switch. I'm just lifting my foot off the ground and my arm off the earth inhale. 78 00:12:48.610 --> 00:12:53.269 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): and we'll move like this, and you can stay just moving 79 00:12:53.730 --> 00:12:57.430 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): like that, or, if you would like, you can cross 80 00:12:57.720 --> 00:13:03.750 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): your leg over to the other side. Right? So it's like same hand, same leg. 81 00:13:04.300 --> 00:13:11.320 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): same hands, same leg. So your choice of how you do this this dance 82 00:13:17.740 --> 00:13:20.129 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): and a few more breaths here. 83 00:13:29.800 --> 00:13:34.454 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): exhaling last movement and then releasing 84 00:13:38.240 --> 00:13:51.220 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Shiva, was one to always internalize a practice. So, though the practice of the tandaba is very visual physical. 85 00:13:51.330 --> 00:14:00.890 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): There's also the internal dance. And so this dance of internally releasing, surrendering. 86 00:14:03.280 --> 00:14:09.549 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Perhaps there's something within that you wish to release and just letting your 87 00:14:09.670 --> 00:14:12.650 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): mind, body, spirit, be with that now 88 00:14:17.810 --> 00:14:28.010 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): honoring the presence of the quality of Shiva, the quality of clarity, of insight, of removing that which 89 00:14:28.950 --> 00:14:35.399 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): gets in the way opening to fullness within. 90 00:14:45.710 --> 00:14:52.859 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And so we'll move into Japa repetition of mantra and then into silence. 91 00:14:53.340 --> 00:15:02.329 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And so you can repeat any Japa or mantra, or any word that you would like. Perhaps it's a word like peace or a word like 92 00:15:02.480 --> 00:15:04.760 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): freedom power. 93 00:15:05.400 --> 00:15:15.459 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): I'll invite us to do the mantra for Shiva. But again, you don't have to do Shiva's mantra, and what I find so 94 00:15:16.030 --> 00:15:21.989 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): inspiring about this mantra is, you know, all day long, all night long. 95 00:15:22.810 --> 00:15:28.430 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): likely unbroken. For thousands and thousands of years this mantra has been chanted 96 00:15:28.560 --> 00:15:35.569 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): to that quality of clarity and that quality of spiritual commitment. 97 00:15:37.190 --> 00:15:46.040 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): and the mantra is Om nama Shavaya om nama Shavaya and 98 00:15:47.330 --> 00:15:50.499 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): I put in the chat in case it's helpful to see. 99 00:15:51.300 --> 00:15:54.887 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): and we'll chant. I'll chant it aloud. 100 00:15:58.840 --> 00:16:03.230 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): about 8 times invitation to chant aloud 101 00:16:03.770 --> 00:16:25.119 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): if you would like, and then for yourself, or to repeat in your mind, and then we'll move into a silence, practice a mountain of practice, and of course, in silence our minds might chatter. There may be noise around us. It doesn't mean you're doing it wrong. It's just a silence from which clarity and insight can emerge 102 00:16:26.600 --> 00:16:30.789 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): deep breath in and full breath out. 103 00:16:36.570 --> 00:17:07.460 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Oh, nama Shivaya nama shuvaya nama Shivaya nama shivaya om nama Shivaya nama Shivaya 104 00:17:07.800 --> 00:17:12.120 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): om nama Shivaya. 105 00:17:12.520 --> 00:17:21.880 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Oh, Nama Shivana, I'm continuing to repeat or to rest in silence. 106 00:17:22.410 --> 00:17:26.300 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): and I'll guide us out with 8 more chants when it's time. 107 00:22:39.646 --> 00:22:42.759 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Nama Shira! 108 00:22:48.630 --> 00:22:53.190 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Oh, Nama, Shiva! 109 00:22:58.560 --> 00:23:12.809 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Oh, Nama, Shivaya nama Shiva, I am nama Shira. 110 00:23:14.550 --> 00:23:15.320 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Oh! 111 00:23:27.910 --> 00:23:34.940 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Feeling energy of rest and release. 112 00:23:38.500 --> 00:23:47.299 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): perhaps reflecting on what you wish to release or dissolve and create. 113 00:23:49.690 --> 00:23:58.789 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): and then I'll drop some reflection questions in the chat. So there's 2 possible ways to 114 00:24:01.940 --> 00:24:17.829 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): to explore, and I want to guide us into this so, or you can do both. I thought that it might be instead of just journaling directly. Maybe we could do a little haiku, or like some poetry writing 115 00:24:18.290 --> 00:24:22.610 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): so writing a poem or a Haiku haiku is 5, 116 00:24:22.950 --> 00:24:32.260 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): 7, 5. So 5 syllables, 7 syllables, 5 syllables, and there's like a spareness there that I think really 117 00:24:33.910 --> 00:24:36.630 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): connects with Shiva's energy. 118 00:24:39.050 --> 00:24:45.589 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): or just, you know, poetry of any kind. And then, if you prefer a more direct like journal 119 00:24:46.420 --> 00:24:55.530 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): direction, then what do I need to release? Or when am I dissolving or letting go limiting belief or an attachment, an old habit. 120 00:24:55.770 --> 00:25:01.069 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): How can I cultivate inner stillness right like journaling, meditation? 121 00:25:01.190 --> 00:25:07.490 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And what's 1 small way I can embody and honor Shiva's wisdom in my life in my day right now. 122 00:25:08.160 --> 00:25:22.030 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): and so we'll take some time, probably about 10 min. Just so there's enough time for us to really like get creative, and I'll put on some wordless music to support us, and then we'll 123 00:25:22.560 --> 00:25:24.410 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): come back into our circle. 124 00:26:22.410 --> 00:26:23.180 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Okay. 125 00:26:42.630 --> 00:26:43.600 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): me 126 00:27:21.340 --> 00:27:22.050 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): clear. 127 00:29:05.530 --> 00:29:06.360 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Oh. 128 00:29:32.290 --> 00:29:33.210 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): the 129 00:30:01.270 --> 00:30:09.580 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): we you e 130 00:30:17.660 --> 00:30:18.450 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): E. 131 00:30:18.760 --> 00:30:19.830 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Whoa! 132 00:31:00.760 --> 00:31:02.950 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And we 133 00:31:34.410 --> 00:31:35.510 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): woo. 134 00:32:03.530 --> 00:32:04.260 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Oh. 135 00:32:27.650 --> 00:32:28.360 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): you know. 136 00:32:31.590 --> 00:32:36.120 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): t you 137 00:32:58.720 --> 00:32:59.410 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): you 138 00:33:43.430 --> 00:33:44.420 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): rules 139 00:33:53.270 --> 00:33:54.270 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): wee 140 00:34:29.230 --> 00:34:34.770 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): peace minute or 2 to finish up. 141 00:34:35.929 --> 00:34:42.550 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): If you'd like, you can drop your reflections or your poem in the chat 142 00:35:12.940 --> 00:35:13.860 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): we see. 143 00:35:33.900 --> 00:35:38.290 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Hmm, hmm! 144 00:35:40.140 --> 00:35:42.400 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Thank you for that practice. 145 00:35:42.590 --> 00:35:47.399 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): I want to invite anyone who would like to read theirs or share theirs out loud. 146 00:35:54.740 --> 00:36:12.199 Carly Joelle: Hi! This is Carly. This gave me a rare, positive flashback of high school. I haven't played with Haikus in so long. So thank you. So I came up with sitting with what is removing what does not serve 147 00:36:12.380 --> 00:36:14.210 Carly Joelle: time to start again. 148 00:36:25.440 --> 00:36:36.878 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Taking us back to high school. I just want to say, I love all the online reactions. You can snap. You can do the deaf clap. I learned this as. And you can use online reactions, too. 149 00:36:38.520 --> 00:36:39.370 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): I love it. 150 00:36:40.010 --> 00:36:41.050 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Hmm. 151 00:36:41.050 --> 00:36:53.059 Nikki McMaster-Martorano (she/her): Thanks for getting us started. Carly. What I came up with was stand in my softness, releasing expectations grounded in my strength. 152 00:37:14.240 --> 00:37:18.136 Alda Santana: I can go. I did not follow the haiku. 153 00:37:19.535 --> 00:37:23.070 Alda Santana: I'm very bad at following directions, but. 154 00:37:23.070 --> 00:37:28.009 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): That's perfect. That's wonderful. 155 00:37:28.610 --> 00:37:39.689 Alda Santana: Mine is burn, burn, bright, ash drifts, landing softly, and still life emerges from the embers. Life stirs in the glow. 156 00:37:47.262 --> 00:37:48.770 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): It's so beautiful. 157 00:37:49.630 --> 00:37:56.190 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Thank you. And I don't know if you can see folks are sending reactions, hearts and stars. 158 00:38:03.020 --> 00:38:08.899 AJ Singh: I struggled, writing a haiku. I don't know if I've ever successfully written a haiku before. 159 00:38:10.880 --> 00:38:13.688 AJ Singh: You can judge if it's successful or not. 160 00:38:14.730 --> 00:38:20.020 AJ Singh: The quietude sings of thunder and firelight making things anew. 161 00:38:43.570 --> 00:38:50.040 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Waves of chaos. Churn fingers touch mountains of peace. 162 00:38:50.880 --> 00:38:52.830 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Power lies within 163 00:39:00.060 --> 00:39:10.090 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): such a lovely way to connect to our practices, and, like despairing creativity words, and 164 00:39:11.420 --> 00:39:17.249 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): and even if you know it doesn't go anywhere, you just maybe you remember it as a 165 00:39:18.960 --> 00:39:23.310 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Agatha, like thich Nhat Han. One of my teachers talks about like phrases. 166 00:39:23.480 --> 00:39:29.590 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): This is a practice in many different traditions, including there's a Sufi 167 00:39:31.090 --> 00:39:52.670 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): phrase poem, really, that I'll share in a moment. That doesn't follow the 5, 7, 5 form, but somehow still feels like a like a mantra to me, and it's something that I sometimes repeat to myself or chant, and so you can use your words or other words as like a practice poem, right as like 168 00:39:52.790 --> 00:39:54.790 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): a practice to come back to. 169 00:39:55.370 --> 00:40:01.570 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And so this one is, I'll write it in the chat. 170 00:40:01.990 --> 00:40:08.640 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Only within is the fire. I kindle my heart, the altar. 171 00:40:09.080 --> 00:40:20.120 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): my heart, the altar, and it is a Sufi poem. It was translated by Catriona. 172 00:40:21.280 --> 00:40:31.319 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Read a trans Buddhist meditation teacher that I've known for a while. 173 00:40:32.080 --> 00:40:41.084 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): and so I'll chant it. And then, you know, if you'd like. You can make it part of your own practice, or share it 174 00:40:42.800 --> 00:41:05.139 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): only within burnza fire. I kindle my heart. The altar, my heart, the altar only within burns the 175 00:41:05.480 --> 00:41:28.210 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): fire, I kindle my heart, the altar, my heart, the altar only within burns that fire I candle 176 00:41:29.040 --> 00:41:37.069 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): my heart, the altar, my heart, the altar. 177 00:41:37.630 --> 00:41:40.530 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And now repeating in your mind. 178 00:41:53.890 --> 00:42:05.400 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): and swing just a little bit, and perhaps letting your own words, your own poem become your own mantra, your own practice. 179 00:42:09.530 --> 00:42:13.460 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): So I wanted to just kind of open up 180 00:42:13.920 --> 00:42:17.509 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): to see if anyone had anything you'd like to share about 181 00:42:17.920 --> 00:42:22.690 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): this practice or reflection during this time or 182 00:42:22.870 --> 00:42:25.950 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): questions about Chimaratri or anything. Really. 183 00:42:27.220 --> 00:42:32.719 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): we have a little bit of time, and we, if there isn't anything we can also practice in silence. 184 00:42:34.670 --> 00:42:36.420 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Circle is open. 185 00:43:54.640 --> 00:43:55.970 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): and I love this. 186 00:43:56.360 --> 00:44:01.569 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): I think we should move into like a a peaceful 187 00:44:02.060 --> 00:44:04.990 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): time of offering some love to our bodies 188 00:44:05.490 --> 00:44:15.130 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): like a body scan. That is another way of entering a kind of silence. Silence like bringing that calm and quietude 189 00:44:15.690 --> 00:44:24.240 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): to our own bodies, and I'll invite us to 190 00:44:24.670 --> 00:44:29.080 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): close quietly. So when we close I'll just 191 00:44:29.320 --> 00:44:33.999 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): close, because some of you might want to lie down. Turn your cameras off. 192 00:44:34.210 --> 00:44:44.910 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): just really let yourselves receive and have a moment. It'll be about 10 min of of nourishment, and 193 00:44:46.490 --> 00:44:54.840 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): we'll just kind of float away into Mahashibharatri our day and night of deep practice. 194 00:44:57.770 --> 00:45:13.479 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): So coming into any posture or shape that allows for Stira and Sukha for ease. Really, maybe not so much effort. So maybe more Stuka or Sukha, more 195 00:45:13.940 --> 00:45:20.140 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): grounding, more support, and breathing deeply. 196 00:45:23.650 --> 00:45:41.520 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): allowing your awareness to come to your crown of your head under eyelids, bridge of your nose 197 00:45:44.760 --> 00:45:50.160 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): resting, bringing ease to your head. 198 00:45:51.760 --> 00:45:56.180 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): So the space between your nose and the crown of your head 199 00:46:01.750 --> 00:46:05.730 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): to your cheeks, job 200 00:46:10.120 --> 00:46:12.040 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): back of your head. 201 00:46:17.200 --> 00:46:20.050 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): bringing awareness to your throat. 202 00:46:20.850 --> 00:46:37.979 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Vishuda Chakra, noticing its relationship with Avnia Chakra, the center of your forehead, Sahasra, Chakra, the crown. 203 00:46:38.860 --> 00:46:42.910 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): and allowing silence and ease through 204 00:46:43.410 --> 00:46:54.180 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): your whole head, your whole energy system from the crown, 2 3rd eye 205 00:46:55.270 --> 00:46:58.950 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): to your organs of listening and speaking. 206 00:47:06.470 --> 00:47:22.860 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): coming down from there to your shoulders, arms, each hand, palm of your hands, fingers 207 00:47:25.480 --> 00:47:29.419 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): bringing silence and ease down your arms 208 00:47:36.350 --> 00:47:47.460 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): next to your heart, letting your heart actual muscle rest and ease. 209 00:47:50.460 --> 00:47:57.150 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): I think your brain, which works so hard for you, rest and ease. 210 00:48:03.120 --> 00:48:17.760 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): I'm feeling your Annahatachra, the energy of trust, of love, feeling space around your heart center 211 00:48:27.930 --> 00:48:35.470 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): and then bringing your awareness down to your belly midsection 212 00:48:39.050 --> 00:48:50.200 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): kidneys on the back of your body, diaphragm the lunch. 213 00:48:52.060 --> 00:48:55.539 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): letting them all ease and relax 214 00:48:57.590 --> 00:49:03.460 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): the liver and pancreas. These organs that do so much for us 215 00:49:05.570 --> 00:49:14.270 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): sending some love and gratitude to these organs, letting them rest 216 00:49:23.490 --> 00:49:36.139 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): belly, and your organs of digestion and elimination stomach, Colon, large and small, intestine. 217 00:49:42.500 --> 00:49:49.260 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): feeling, grateful for the ability to assimilate and release 218 00:49:51.220 --> 00:49:59.180 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): this quality of Shiva that we do all the time bringing in and releasing 219 00:50:06.330 --> 00:50:14.740 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): you were made for this, and it's an energy that each of us has direct connection to 220 00:50:16.500 --> 00:50:23.650 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): sending gratitude to all the organs that allow you to digest, to assimilate. 221 00:50:24.070 --> 00:50:28.679 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): to expel and release that which you no longer need. 222 00:50:38.630 --> 00:50:50.679 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): and bringing awareness to your regenerative system, whether it's physically there or not. 223 00:50:53.150 --> 00:50:56.039 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): This area below the belly button 224 00:50:56.560 --> 00:51:01.729 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): that's energetically the center of creativity of flow. 225 00:51:07.210 --> 00:51:14.320 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): feeling that flow and creativity that's yours. Uniquely yours. 226 00:51:14.870 --> 00:51:20.830 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): sending some rest there, you don't have to create, you get to create and play. 227 00:51:22.460 --> 00:51:25.469 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): So, allowing this center to rest 228 00:51:34.070 --> 00:51:50.720 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): down through your hips, each leg and into each foot bottom of your foot, resting and releasing 229 00:51:55.410 --> 00:51:59.460 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): gratitude to your legs, to your feet 230 00:52:00.100 --> 00:52:02.159 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): for all they do for you. 231 00:52:05.420 --> 00:52:10.199 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): energy of groundedness, connection to the earth. 232 00:52:11.690 --> 00:52:14.610 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): allowing it in them to rest. 233 00:52:21.220 --> 00:52:29.910 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): And now, feeling your whole body, your whole form, whether you connect to it energetically or physically. 234 00:52:30.680 --> 00:52:37.539 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): and feeling the movement, the energy, and also the silence within. 235 00:53:23.530 --> 00:53:34.439 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Welcome to stay in the silence, or, if you would like to float away into your day. 236 00:53:35.480 --> 00:53:43.099 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): bringing the energy Shiva with you 237 00:53:47.940 --> 00:54:01.350 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): on this Mahash of Rucktory movie embrace, stillness and silence let go of illusion, and awakened the wisdom within 238 00:54:01.680 --> 00:54:03.310 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): and all around. 239 00:54:05.290 --> 00:54:12.370 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Oh, Nama, Shivaya, thank you so much to tribute to 240 00:54:12.550 --> 00:54:16.689 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): the lineage all the teachers of this tradition 241 00:54:17.160 --> 00:54:23.230 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): to Shiva, and all the energies that support our liberation. 242 00:54:24.190 --> 00:54:25.480 Susanna Barkataki (She/They): Thank you.