WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.770 --> 00:00:01.490 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Okay. 2 00:00:02.840 --> 00:00:08.830 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): so I'm just setting up captions in case folks would like them. 3 00:00:09.520 --> 00:00:13.466 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): So welcome to our April off, or 4 00:00:15.650 --> 00:00:18.283 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): take in, let me take a breath. 5 00:00:18.680 --> 00:00:24.390 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I can't do 2 things at once. So 6 00:00:25.390 --> 00:00:26.850 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): turn off 7 00:00:28.470 --> 00:00:30.420 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): options for myself. 8 00:00:31.610 --> 00:00:32.409 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Okay. 9 00:00:33.850 --> 00:00:41.520 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): so welcome to our pilgrimage and puja for April. I'm really excited to be here. I feel like 10 00:00:42.600 --> 00:00:48.109 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): there's just so much going on in the world and in our lives. And 11 00:00:48.480 --> 00:00:55.170 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): right now, especially with it being after the full moon or in that full moon energy. 12 00:00:55.220 --> 00:00:59.559 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): It's a time where we can turn that all this 13 00:00:59.590 --> 00:01:01.600 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): out back in 14 00:01:01.840 --> 00:01:06.779 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): into an inner focus, for like a swaddia practice. 15 00:01:06.830 --> 00:01:29.759 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): So I wanted to bring that to us today, and then also take some time to reflect and journal a little bit, and then and then share. So that's where we're headed. But as we, before we begin, send invitation to drop in the chat, how you're doing, or if anyone would like to share out loud welcoming that into the space. 16 00:01:47.750 --> 00:01:56.260 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Yeah, you can drop 2 words, or if you'd like, and if anyone would like to share out loud. It's always lovely to hear your voices so 17 00:01:56.330 --> 00:02:02.050 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): welcoming in you in. And then for folks who just came in, we're just kind of doing a little check in 18 00:02:02.470 --> 00:02:05.200 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): either in the chat or out loud. 19 00:02:17.060 --> 00:02:18.350 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): alright 20 00:02:18.540 --> 00:02:20.080 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): doing all right. 21 00:02:20.380 --> 00:02:22.379 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): tired and hopeful. 22 00:02:23.300 --> 00:02:24.200 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Yeah. 23 00:02:29.230 --> 00:02:33.440 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I've been seeing some folks sharing about 24 00:02:33.620 --> 00:02:34.940 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): like the 25 00:02:35.370 --> 00:02:37.870 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): the kind of journey and the work of 26 00:02:39.590 --> 00:02:56.109 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): teaching, but then also sharing on social media and behind the scenes the stuff that no one really ever sees, like the editing and the planning. I've been reflecting on that, because just before I came on today, I was working on a presentation 27 00:02:56.740 --> 00:03:10.069 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): for a company with Yoga, and and it took me all morning to make the presentation. And I thought, Wow! Why, why did it take me like 3 h to make a slideshow, you know, and 28 00:03:10.480 --> 00:03:16.219 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and I'm still not quite done. So it's just one of those things where 29 00:03:18.260 --> 00:03:20.180 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): the work behind the work. 30 00:03:20.590 --> 00:03:24.199 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): you know, and and the work that no one sees. 31 00:03:25.810 --> 00:03:33.949 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I also was reflecting today on the emotional labor. You know, it's like, sometimes as Yoga teachers 32 00:03:34.070 --> 00:03:37.879 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): people are like, why'd you get mad. You're I'm too a yoga teacher. 33 00:03:39.081 --> 00:03:46.610 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Wow! That was snarky for a yoga teacher, you know. And and so one. 34 00:03:47.210 --> 00:03:50.620 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): the outside world sometimes holds us to a higher standard. 35 00:03:50.970 --> 00:03:59.870 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): but also quite likely we ourselves hold ourselves to a high, a high standard, you know, because we're trying to practice Yogic Yogic ethics. 36 00:04:00.280 --> 00:04:02.169 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And as we do it 37 00:04:03.600 --> 00:04:05.200 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): as we practice. 38 00:04:05.640 --> 00:04:08.140 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): there's a lot of work happening there. 39 00:04:08.330 --> 00:04:09.840 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And so 40 00:04:10.640 --> 00:04:14.409 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): just kind of foregrounding how slide Yaya can be. 41 00:04:15.230 --> 00:04:23.949 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): It can be really like useful, like, oh, how am I doing right now? How is it in my body? What's happening? What do I need? And it can also be 42 00:04:24.870 --> 00:04:32.210 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): kind of like the intensity of self-development. I don't know if anyone here has ever done this, but I spent a period of my life. 43 00:04:32.320 --> 00:04:39.389 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Gosh! Maybe it was like 2 years. All I was reading was Yoga books and self-development books, and I realized, like 44 00:04:40.060 --> 00:04:49.930 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): there was never a break. There was always some sort of striving to do better, to be better, to change, you know, in some in some way, and it was really exhausting. 45 00:04:50.290 --> 00:04:52.870 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And so for the last 2 years. 46 00:04:53.900 --> 00:04:59.379 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I it's funny. I've barely been picking up self-help books a little bit like 47 00:04:59.580 --> 00:05:07.530 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): there's some really good ones that have come out. Actually. So I've been reading some of those, but every now and again, but the majority of what I read is either Yogic text 48 00:05:07.730 --> 00:05:08.789 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): for fiction. 49 00:05:08.800 --> 00:05:15.680 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And right now I'm really into paranormal fiction. There's a whole genre of like midlife women's paranormal fiction. 50 00:05:15.880 --> 00:05:21.779 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And it's it's so fun, you know, and and I share that to say, like. 51 00:05:21.990 --> 00:05:25.250 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): also holding our Spa, yeah, our self 52 00:05:26.900 --> 00:05:28.720 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): self-reflection with that 53 00:05:28.740 --> 00:05:35.286 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): kind of lighter. Yeah, without the like, you must be better to like, oh, how am I doing 54 00:05:35.990 --> 00:05:42.030 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): then? What's going on? What you know. So just an invitation into that 55 00:05:42.840 --> 00:05:45.259 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Jane and Kranz? Yeah. 56 00:05:46.050 --> 00:05:49.569 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): feel like at periodically. I'm like, I need a book list. 57 00:05:51.620 --> 00:06:01.279 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I need a book list for these. There's one is her name JJC. Yends. 58 00:06:03.430 --> 00:06:09.020 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): think that's right, humans. I might have spelled it wrong. But but something like that. 59 00:06:10.910 --> 00:06:12.220 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and 60 00:06:14.060 --> 00:06:19.296 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): it's cool cause the the characters are. Also there's quite a few queer characters. 61 00:06:20.190 --> 00:06:37.480 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and I appreciate that, and like pulp, I don't know what you call it, if it's pulp fiction or pop fiction, some kind of some kind of fiction, but it's like little bit more relatable. While being a a good story. But all that to say as we begin this this exploration. 62 00:06:38.210 --> 00:06:41.090 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): it's bringing in like our humanness. 63 00:06:41.130 --> 00:06:42.540 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Right are 64 00:06:42.840 --> 00:07:01.010 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): what you sometimes we might think of like as vices or the things that we're like. Oh, I was so bad last night. I binged Netflix like. No, maybe you just needed to chill right like and hang out and watch some shows and laugh, and you know, or get scared about something happening in someone else's life like 65 00:07:02.460 --> 00:07:05.220 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): it doesn't mean there's something wrong 66 00:07:05.750 --> 00:07:09.289 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): when you inquire, and you see what you need. 67 00:07:10.780 --> 00:07:14.700 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): It doesn't mean that there's anything that needs to be fixed or changed. 68 00:07:15.090 --> 00:07:23.430 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): It can just be you loving what you love, and exploring what you are exploring now that said like. 69 00:07:23.700 --> 00:07:46.260 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): of course, we can always grow and change. But we don't have to like point the finger or be so harsh with ourselves. I'm in big trouble. No, and I I I'm sort of externalizing my own internal stuff, for whatever reason, right? It's like the things, the stories in my head that that are there. 70 00:07:46.540 --> 00:07:47.530 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): that 71 00:07:48.350 --> 00:07:50.940 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): are part of the path of 72 00:07:51.900 --> 00:07:56.000 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): tending to myself in a more loving and more gentle and more kind way. 73 00:07:56.550 --> 00:08:03.259 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And you you may have different stories. You may not have these stories, and that's great, too. 74 00:08:03.540 --> 00:08:05.770 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): but just kind of sharing my own. 75 00:08:08.610 --> 00:08:09.800 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Any 76 00:08:10.330 --> 00:08:14.159 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): anyone else wanna share anything. And I'm gonna 77 00:08:15.750 --> 00:08:17.999 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): just give us a moment before I 78 00:08:19.400 --> 00:08:22.940 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): a kindness and practice. I just have a sense that there's like. 79 00:08:23.760 --> 00:08:27.329 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): maybe something on someone's heart or mind 80 00:08:27.370 --> 00:08:28.870 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): that wants to be shared. 81 00:08:42.880 --> 00:08:44.840 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): So we'll practice a little bit. 82 00:08:46.510 --> 00:08:54.199 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And we're exploring. Spa, yeah, yeah, today. So the first invitation is to 83 00:08:54.740 --> 00:08:56.399 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): check in with yourself 84 00:08:57.100 --> 00:08:58.210 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and then 85 00:08:58.480 --> 00:09:05.109 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): continue that like, how is it with me? How is it with my body? How is it with my mind, my heart. 86 00:09:08.450 --> 00:09:14.030 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): through our practice? And so, if at any time I say something or guide something that 87 00:09:14.080 --> 00:09:22.719 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): like, oh, I don't want to move my arm in that way. I want to light out, or I want to move differently. The invitation is to do what supports you. 88 00:09:23.970 --> 00:09:25.740 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): So I'm going to 89 00:09:25.820 --> 00:09:27.290 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): invite the bell. 90 00:09:27.780 --> 00:09:30.020 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and we will drop into practice 91 00:10:35.100 --> 00:10:38.789 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): your attention inward and downward 92 00:10:40.150 --> 00:10:43.880 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): until all the parts of you that are touching the earth 93 00:10:44.220 --> 00:10:45.420 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): chair. 94 00:10:53.110 --> 00:10:56.379 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Allow your breath to move easily. 95 00:11:02.690 --> 00:11:06.660 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): taking some time to scan through your body. 96 00:11:11.140 --> 00:11:13.529 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): not needing to change anything 97 00:11:16.560 --> 00:11:19.579 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): inquiring, how is it with me? 98 00:11:22.510 --> 00:11:24.919 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): How does it feel in my face. 99 00:11:26.270 --> 00:11:28.360 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): neck and torso. 100 00:11:30.030 --> 00:11:31.190 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): back. 101 00:11:31.780 --> 00:11:32.990 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): belly. 102 00:11:33.570 --> 00:11:35.550 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): shoulders and arms. 103 00:11:36.710 --> 00:11:38.070 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): fingers. 104 00:11:41.390 --> 00:11:42.500 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): hips. 105 00:11:44.930 --> 00:11:46.380 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): both legs. 106 00:11:49.030 --> 00:11:50.859 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): bottoms of my feet. 107 00:12:00.430 --> 00:12:03.420 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): How is it in my emotions? 108 00:12:07.380 --> 00:12:10.730 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Sometimes it can be helpful to explore this 109 00:12:11.010 --> 00:12:12.699 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): in terms of the weather. 110 00:12:14.600 --> 00:12:18.179 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): What kind of weather do you have on the inside. 111 00:12:18.830 --> 00:12:21.939 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): sunny, cloudy, stormy 112 00:12:22.440 --> 00:12:27.139 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): lots of big, puffy clouds. Whatever the meaning is for you. 113 00:12:45.040 --> 00:12:49.340 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): vlad yaya means self study, self reflection. 114 00:12:49.530 --> 00:12:50.970 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): smile, self. 115 00:12:51.520 --> 00:12:53.389 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Tiah, study 116 00:12:53.780 --> 00:12:56.280 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): one's own oneself. 117 00:12:58.600 --> 00:13:00.000 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and Spa 118 00:13:00.530 --> 00:13:02.409 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): as part of the greater 119 00:13:05.070 --> 00:13:06.759 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): capital S. Self. 120 00:13:08.930 --> 00:13:12.480 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): but absolutely and completely unique. 121 00:13:12.630 --> 00:13:17.890 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): No one with the same voice, no one with the same fingerprints or energy signature. 122 00:13:18.320 --> 00:13:21.359 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and hit completely connected to 123 00:13:21.370 --> 00:13:22.840 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): all that is 124 00:13:23.550 --> 00:13:24.630 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): enter 125 00:13:24.980 --> 00:13:25.980 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): peeing. 126 00:13:38.760 --> 00:13:40.709 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And so practicing 127 00:13:40.800 --> 00:13:42.150 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): this kind of 128 00:13:44.090 --> 00:13:45.900 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): reconnection. 129 00:13:45.960 --> 00:13:48.860 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): a remembering self, remembering. 130 00:13:49.430 --> 00:13:51.940 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): resting in awareness 131 00:13:53.620 --> 00:13:54.720 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): in our 132 00:13:56.690 --> 00:13:57.900 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): divinity. 133 00:14:10.220 --> 00:14:12.310 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): observing yourself. 134 00:14:14.460 --> 00:14:16.190 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and seeing where. 135 00:14:16.310 --> 00:14:17.290 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): perhaps. 136 00:14:18.260 --> 00:14:24.120 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): that observation or awareness of something going on for you could be in your life 137 00:14:24.700 --> 00:14:26.790 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): a challenge or a struggle. 138 00:14:27.660 --> 00:14:30.860 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): maybe at work or in personal relationship. 139 00:14:32.470 --> 00:14:38.080 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and remembering that we're expanding that self awareness out to 140 00:14:38.740 --> 00:14:39.899 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): who else. 141 00:14:40.270 --> 00:14:46.450 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): known or unknown, may be struggling with a work challenge dealing with a 142 00:14:47.220 --> 00:14:49.559 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): conflict with a family member 143 00:14:50.090 --> 00:14:54.709 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): worried about this or that thing that you're also concerned about. 144 00:14:55.180 --> 00:14:57.410 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): You are not alone. 145 00:14:58.560 --> 00:15:02.160 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and these things that are so unique and feel so personal 146 00:15:03.440 --> 00:15:06.979 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): can also be the very things that connect you 147 00:15:07.320 --> 00:15:09.520 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): to absolute strangers. 148 00:15:10.626 --> 00:15:15.650 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Are they really strangers? They they like, you know the pain of loss. 149 00:15:18.650 --> 00:15:21.159 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): the pain and burn of desire. 150 00:15:23.310 --> 00:15:25.450 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): the ache of loneliness. 151 00:15:27.420 --> 00:15:28.880 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): the joy 152 00:15:29.010 --> 00:15:31.589 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): of love and play 153 00:15:38.590 --> 00:15:40.130 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): moving from 154 00:15:41.300 --> 00:15:43.140 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): little S self 155 00:15:44.120 --> 00:15:45.990 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): to the big S self. 156 00:15:49.170 --> 00:15:52.870 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): What is the study of all 157 00:16:02.750 --> 00:16:04.630 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): of interconnectedness? 158 00:16:11.570 --> 00:16:14.319 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And as we move into 159 00:16:15.140 --> 00:16:17.149 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): some embodied movement. 160 00:16:17.430 --> 00:16:21.480 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): perhaps, if you're noticing any tightness or tension. 161 00:16:22.200 --> 00:16:32.069 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): move not just for your own body, but imagining that as you move, you can bring ease to everyone, experiencing tightness or tension. 162 00:16:32.450 --> 00:16:34.660 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): say on their shoulders or 163 00:16:35.270 --> 00:16:37.280 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): in their value or test 164 00:16:38.410 --> 00:16:42.060 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): everyone wanting more power, more confidence. 165 00:16:43.290 --> 00:16:44.800 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): more uplift. 166 00:16:48.050 --> 00:16:52.719 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): invite you to gently inhale, lift your arms, any amount 167 00:16:53.010 --> 00:16:54.640 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): away from the earth. 168 00:16:57.070 --> 00:17:00.039 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): exhaling hands come down 169 00:17:00.350 --> 00:17:01.999 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): to Heart center. 170 00:17:04.450 --> 00:17:06.929 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): inhale, lift up. 171 00:17:07.390 --> 00:17:09.040 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): twisting over 172 00:17:09.579 --> 00:17:16.729 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): to one side, and if you have a chair there, maybe using the arms of the chair to help you twist from your belly. 173 00:17:16.930 --> 00:17:18.050 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): test 174 00:17:18.400 --> 00:17:19.560 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): 10 175 00:17:29.890 --> 00:17:31.470 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): softening 176 00:17:31.690 --> 00:17:34.100 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): as you inhale and exhale. 177 00:17:53.100 --> 00:18:00.869 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Next inhale, coming back through center arms, come up towards the sky and down to meet at your heart 178 00:18:04.930 --> 00:18:07.970 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): next inhale, acting up. 179 00:18:08.270 --> 00:18:12.110 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I'm stretching into a twist on the other side 180 00:18:16.160 --> 00:18:22.360 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): once again twisting from your belly, your test your tin your eyes twist around last. 181 00:18:46.930 --> 00:18:48.610 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and hearing 182 00:18:49.020 --> 00:18:51.460 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I was up towards the sky. 183 00:18:51.890 --> 00:18:54.660 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): down towards your heart. 184 00:19:04.740 --> 00:19:08.419 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): inhale them out in front of you. 185 00:19:08.640 --> 00:19:12.880 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): rotating your wrists around in circles. 186 00:19:15.120 --> 00:19:17.929 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): one direction and then the other. 187 00:19:21.300 --> 00:19:27.750 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): moving at your elbows, shoulders if you like, making wider circles around you. 188 00:19:28.170 --> 00:19:30.460 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): imagining that you have 189 00:19:30.690 --> 00:19:34.499 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): a moon on your left and a sun on your right. 190 00:19:36.220 --> 00:19:38.000 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Use elemental 191 00:19:38.580 --> 00:19:39.720 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): powers. 192 00:19:44.640 --> 00:19:51.200 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and then bringing your hands together, bringing together the solar and the lunar, the hot, the energy. 193 00:19:52.330 --> 00:19:55.520 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and perhaps bringing that into your heart. 194 00:19:55.750 --> 00:19:58.440 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): shoulders anywhere that needs it 195 00:20:04.340 --> 00:20:05.720 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): receive. 196 00:20:07.610 --> 00:20:20.230 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And then we'll gently bring our hands behind our back, one arm behind your back, clasping the other hand. So hands are clasped on one side like mine are on the bottom right. 197 00:20:20.750 --> 00:20:22.420 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and then you can drop 198 00:20:22.940 --> 00:20:30.879 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): your left ear over to the left, so, stretching through your right ear, and even right side body. 199 00:20:35.950 --> 00:20:37.980 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): maybe gazing down. 200 00:20:38.740 --> 00:20:40.930 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): gazing up towards the sky. 201 00:20:41.650 --> 00:20:44.079 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): opening and closing your jaw. 202 00:20:54.420 --> 00:20:57.979 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): releasing your hands, expanding them out 203 00:20:58.170 --> 00:20:59.650 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): to the sides. 204 00:20:59.850 --> 00:21:01.839 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): giving yourself a hug. 205 00:21:03.600 --> 00:21:05.270 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Hmm! 206 00:21:07.110 --> 00:21:10.189 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And exhale, expanding your arms out. 207 00:21:10.300 --> 00:21:11.960 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): rotating them. 208 00:21:12.400 --> 00:21:15.500 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): your hand wrists the other direction. 209 00:21:23.060 --> 00:21:24.890 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I'm reaching back 210 00:21:25.030 --> 00:21:34.179 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): with your right hand behind you, left hand down to the side, so your hands are classed at the bottom of your left side body. 211 00:21:35.890 --> 00:21:43.411 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and they can clasp any way you want, so they can be intertwined, or one hand over the wrist. Whatever works for you, just to give your 212 00:21:43.860 --> 00:21:47.999 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): shoulders a little bit of extra traction, dropping 213 00:21:48.130 --> 00:21:50.749 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): your right ear to your right shoulder. 214 00:21:51.680 --> 00:21:54.220 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): opening and closing your jaw. 215 00:21:59.780 --> 00:22:01.540 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): looking down. 216 00:22:03.300 --> 00:22:04.470 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): looking up. 217 00:22:30.390 --> 00:22:34.650 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): inhaling, stretching your arms out to the sides. 218 00:22:34.760 --> 00:22:38.449 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Bring them around other arm on top for a big hug. 219 00:22:39.790 --> 00:22:41.150 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Hmm! 220 00:22:41.610 --> 00:22:52.400 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Exhale, rolling forward into a forward fold. So option to take this in your chair if you're sitting, or to stand 221 00:22:52.530 --> 00:22:54.870 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): fold forward towards the earth. 222 00:22:55.270 --> 00:22:57.259 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): nodding your head, yes. 223 00:22:57.870 --> 00:22:59.900 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): shaking your head, no 224 00:23:03.660 --> 00:23:05.559 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): deep breath in 225 00:23:06.570 --> 00:23:08.840 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): full big exhale 226 00:23:26.270 --> 00:23:29.360 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): inhale coming back up. 227 00:23:31.670 --> 00:23:39.290 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and then standing or sitting up towards the sky, will bring our 228 00:23:39.530 --> 00:23:51.680 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): backs long and straight, and if you're standing option to bring one leg up and place that foot in on the front of your thigh. If you're seated, you could do the same seated. 229 00:23:52.730 --> 00:23:59.009 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and then exhale, sitting forward over your leg, so, bending into 230 00:24:00.790 --> 00:24:04.639 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): a figure 4 new chair standing. 231 00:24:05.320 --> 00:24:08.849 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and if you'd like a little more intensity, a little more heat. 232 00:24:09.930 --> 00:24:12.510 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): perhaps standing and bending your knee 233 00:24:14.330 --> 00:24:15.770 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): for a tear. 234 00:24:16.160 --> 00:24:17.460 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): hip, stretch. 235 00:24:18.840 --> 00:24:21.919 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): You can always use a chair table to support you. 236 00:24:25.500 --> 00:24:30.390 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Inhale gently lengthening up, foot comes down. 237 00:24:32.510 --> 00:24:35.219 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): rise up above your head. 238 00:24:36.510 --> 00:24:39.869 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): exhale. Let's come to heart, center 239 00:24:41.540 --> 00:24:43.410 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): the switching sides 240 00:24:47.360 --> 00:24:51.389 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): inhale, lifting up your other foot. 241 00:24:51.840 --> 00:24:55.600 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): placing that on your thigh, seated standing. 242 00:24:59.650 --> 00:25:01.609 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and then exhale. 243 00:25:01.960 --> 00:25:03.630 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): sitting down. 244 00:25:04.720 --> 00:25:07.660 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): folding forward over that bent leg 245 00:25:08.770 --> 00:25:11.759 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): really deepening into your hip. 246 00:25:32.810 --> 00:25:34.200 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Exhale 247 00:25:34.520 --> 00:25:36.139 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): gently coming out. 248 00:25:37.190 --> 00:25:39.950 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): You're like down, finding 249 00:25:40.800 --> 00:25:42.140 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): your arms 250 00:25:42.360 --> 00:25:45.009 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): as we move up, and you lengthen. 251 00:25:45.350 --> 00:25:48.030 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): exhale, coming forward 252 00:25:48.400 --> 00:25:49.950 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): forward fold. 253 00:26:18.420 --> 00:26:20.889 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and he'll rise. 254 00:26:24.290 --> 00:26:25.260 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): See! 255 00:26:25.930 --> 00:26:27.920 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Coming back to 256 00:26:28.310 --> 00:26:32.490 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): seated or standing and clasping your hands behind your back. 257 00:26:33.890 --> 00:26:43.030 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): any of any amount, so you can hold finger, clasp your hands low towards your back, or lift them and expand them away 258 00:26:43.330 --> 00:26:44.720 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): from your body. 259 00:26:45.520 --> 00:26:47.190 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Head can gaze up 260 00:26:47.250 --> 00:26:51.150 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): or down towards the earth, bringing a little more traction. 261 00:27:02.770 --> 00:27:04.520 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and inhaling. 262 00:27:05.040 --> 00:27:13.979 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): releasing your arms away, letting your hands clasp up above your head, and then exhale over to one side, stretching through your side body. 263 00:27:14.180 --> 00:27:22.170 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and so my stretch is on my left side. So if yours is on your right, really rooting down through your right foot, right hip 264 00:27:22.400 --> 00:27:26.369 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): where your left foot, left hip and stretch and open. 265 00:27:32.230 --> 00:27:34.490 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): inhale, rise. 266 00:27:34.920 --> 00:27:37.780 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): exhale tilt to the other side. 267 00:27:39.770 --> 00:27:43.460 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): rooting down. Now on the side that you're stretching 268 00:27:46.620 --> 00:27:48.090 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): can zoom, app 269 00:27:48.560 --> 00:27:49.910 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and down. 270 00:27:57.600 --> 00:27:59.380 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): exhale. 271 00:27:59.740 --> 00:28:03.220 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Bring your arms down and around, giving yourself that 272 00:28:03.760 --> 00:28:05.550 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): generous hug. 273 00:28:15.360 --> 00:28:19.200 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and then inhaling, expanding out 274 00:28:19.400 --> 00:28:22.169 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): one hug on the other side. 275 00:28:29.610 --> 00:28:31.430 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and then expanding 276 00:28:31.690 --> 00:28:34.290 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): as big as you possibly can 277 00:28:34.820 --> 00:28:36.090 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): release. 278 00:28:37.380 --> 00:28:38.280 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Take 279 00:28:38.810 --> 00:28:40.799 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): just a few moments 280 00:28:41.960 --> 00:28:43.400 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): to breathe. 281 00:28:43.900 --> 00:28:45.020 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): to rest. 282 00:28:45.910 --> 00:28:47.640 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): You can let your body 283 00:28:47.860 --> 00:28:48.830 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): rest. 284 00:28:49.600 --> 00:28:53.860 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): your eyes rest a simple gaze, or closing. 285 00:29:00.270 --> 00:29:02.999 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Just be with yourself. 286 00:29:56.100 --> 00:29:58.070 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): You breath in 287 00:29:59.510 --> 00:30:01.420 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): deep breath out. 288 00:30:28.010 --> 00:30:34.330 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I'm going to ask some questions, and then we'll move into some journaling. 289 00:30:35.100 --> 00:30:43.959 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): So these are invitations, and if any one of the questions sparks you, and you just want to stay with that question you're more than welcome to. 290 00:30:45.210 --> 00:30:46.640 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I'll also 291 00:30:46.690 --> 00:30:48.109 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): put them in the chat 292 00:30:51.510 --> 00:31:02.362 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): personally, who are you beyond? How you present in the world? Perhaps another way of asking that would be like beyond the roles that you play. 293 00:31:04.220 --> 00:31:07.580 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): What does your body want you to know right now? 294 00:31:10.190 --> 00:31:13.679 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Where are you in alignment with your purpose? 295 00:31:13.760 --> 00:31:16.239 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And where do you veer from that? 296 00:31:18.530 --> 00:31:22.170 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): What books, teachers or practices 297 00:31:23.800 --> 00:31:27.199 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): have deepened your connection to the self. 298 00:31:29.120 --> 00:31:30.489 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): to yourself. 299 00:31:31.850 --> 00:31:33.320 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): with others? 300 00:31:33.690 --> 00:31:39.260 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): How has self inquiry impacted, how you connect or get along with others 301 00:31:46.170 --> 00:31:49.059 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): in the world. What legacy are you 302 00:31:49.120 --> 00:31:50.510 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): trying to build? 303 00:31:50.870 --> 00:31:55.169 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And how can your practices of self inquiry help you to do that? 304 00:31:56.220 --> 00:32:00.139 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And who are you connected to through that legacy as well. 305 00:32:02.780 --> 00:32:07.070 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): So we'll take some time to journal first thought best that 306 00:32:07.270 --> 00:32:11.499 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): no one is going to read this. But you right? You can share, of course, with us, but 307 00:32:11.630 --> 00:32:22.239 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): really like, allow yourself the freedom of you're not writing to impress me, or you or anyone right like this is just like truly self truth. 308 00:32:23.850 --> 00:32:25.060 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I used to 309 00:32:25.890 --> 00:32:27.439 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): think of this as like 310 00:32:27.660 --> 00:32:33.179 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): the the truth talks right like what gets you to kind of crack to that real deep truth. 311 00:32:33.480 --> 00:32:36.050 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): So see if you can invite that in with your breath. 312 00:32:37.670 --> 00:32:41.130 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Play some music, and we'll we'll journal. 313 00:33:13.350 --> 00:33:21.810 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): A 314 00:33:23.680 --> 00:33:27.800 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): you! 315 00:33:30.380 --> 00:33:35.130 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Oh. 316 00:33:36.950 --> 00:33:45.480 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): a 317 00:33:56.400 --> 00:34:01.850 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): a new. 318 00:34:22.580 --> 00:34:24.159 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): a 319 00:34:32.670 --> 00:34:35.429 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): A 320 00:34:37.590 --> 00:34:47.909 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): through 321 00:35:17.970 --> 00:35:22.270 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): you! 322 00:35:23.770 --> 00:35:34.330 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Oh. 323 00:35:35.990 --> 00:35:37.790 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): a 324 00:35:49.910 --> 00:36:05.480 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): oh. 325 00:36:05.720 --> 00:36:06.570 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): okay. 326 00:36:06.880 --> 00:36:07.620 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): you 327 00:36:16.610 --> 00:36:18.530 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): o 328 00:36:31.240 --> 00:36:33.570 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): ooo! 329 00:36:36.500 --> 00:36:43.480 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): A 330 00:36:53.400 --> 00:36:56.570 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): a 331 00:36:57.870 --> 00:37:08.680 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): oh. 332 00:37:25.470 --> 00:37:35.160 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): A 333 00:37:37.440 --> 00:37:39.140 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): o 334 00:38:08.940 --> 00:38:10.090 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): hmm! 335 00:38:10.240 --> 00:38:12.139 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): So finishing up here 336 00:38:13.370 --> 00:38:14.990 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): sentence, or 337 00:38:15.780 --> 00:38:17.409 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): whatever you're writing. 338 00:38:28.330 --> 00:38:31.219 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): knowing you can come back to reflect more. 339 00:38:32.120 --> 00:38:34.149 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Maybe there was a question 340 00:38:34.690 --> 00:38:37.359 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): that you're like. Oh, I want to reflect on that. 341 00:38:37.580 --> 00:38:48.250 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Think for me the one that stuck out today was, where are you in alignment, in alignment with your purpose? And where do you veer from that? Just like taking the time to kind of pull back and 342 00:38:50.060 --> 00:38:51.170 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): reflect. 343 00:38:51.680 --> 00:38:54.290 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): So I wanted to open it up for 344 00:38:54.470 --> 00:38:59.140 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): folks to share, and also like a reminder of that 345 00:38:59.840 --> 00:39:14.059 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): dismantling and unpacking of perfectionism you don't need to share and be like I have it all figured out. Maybe you do, and that's awesome. But you can also be like, I really don't know. And this brought up a lot more questions, you know, than than answers. And 346 00:39:14.634 --> 00:39:18.270 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): so all all types of sharing are welcome. 347 00:39:20.300 --> 00:39:25.800 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): So invitation. If anyone would like to reflect out loud or share in the chat. 348 00:39:57.470 --> 00:39:59.280 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Justina, love this 349 00:39:59.810 --> 00:40:03.530 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): for the personal peace, animal lover and gardener. 350 00:40:03.770 --> 00:40:06.979 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I don't wanna define myself by work anymore. 351 00:40:07.120 --> 00:40:08.380 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I love that. 352 00:40:09.160 --> 00:40:10.060 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Yeah. 353 00:40:11.670 --> 00:40:19.270 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): that is very revolutionary in the world that we are in in a capitalist world that values us, based on our 354 00:40:19.350 --> 00:40:22.829 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): roles and how we produce and consume. So 355 00:40:23.600 --> 00:40:24.780 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I'm loving it. 356 00:40:24.870 --> 00:40:27.390 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Any particular animals, Justine. 357 00:40:27.760 --> 00:40:30.369 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): that you're feeling connected to right now. 358 00:40:34.970 --> 00:40:51.888 Justine (she/her): Yeah, the cats. They always come around during Yoga. And so when, and so went to hugging the self, I was actually hugging a cat. He just came into snuggle because I haven't seen them all day so sweet. But I love in all animals but cats right now. 359 00:40:53.380 --> 00:40:55.810 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Thank you. Thank you for sharing that 360 00:40:58.100 --> 00:40:59.560 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): anyone else. 361 00:41:02.730 --> 00:41:03.790 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Hmm! 362 00:41:04.110 --> 00:41:07.040 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Cleo puts a heart with the cat picture 363 00:41:08.850 --> 00:41:09.915 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): in the cashier. 364 00:41:10.400 --> 00:41:11.180 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and see 365 00:41:11.660 --> 00:41:12.740 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): powerful. 366 00:41:16.970 --> 00:41:17.816 Jillian: Who is 367 00:41:18.540 --> 00:41:37.488 Jillian: Like just the questions of self inquiry. I didn't necessarily come from it. Come to it from us. Yeah, yeah. Like that wasn't the motivation. And it has absolutely changed. How I interact with my like, my relationship with myself. And so my relationship with others. 368 00:41:39.026 --> 00:41:43.793 Jillian: I do a lot. I has given me a lot more capacity to 369 00:41:44.220 --> 00:41:58.420 Jillian: pause and reflect and be like. Is this old? Is this new? Is this what's really happening? And how do I wanna choose to be in my integrity as opposed to just staying hooked in the reactive cycles. 370 00:42:00.300 --> 00:42:01.829 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Thank you, Italian. 371 00:42:01.970 --> 00:42:07.819 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I'm really resonating with that particularly, I think, in challenging relationships for me. 372 00:42:16.030 --> 00:42:17.340 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Anyone else. 373 00:42:18.040 --> 00:42:20.159 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Yes, Caroline, Hi. 374 00:42:30.150 --> 00:42:31.470 Caroline (they/she): So this. 375 00:42:33.130 --> 00:42:39.310 Caroline (they/she): So I don't know whether what I'm about to share. I'm really sharing from like a performative space, but 376 00:42:39.500 --> 00:42:41.890 Caroline (they/she): so just comes with a bit of a warning 377 00:42:43.297 --> 00:42:52.399 Caroline (they/she): cause when I'd been writing about what I might be on my roles, the only thing that had come well, what had come up. Was that an energy field? 378 00:42:52.780 --> 00:42:54.390 Caroline (they/she): And then kind of 379 00:42:55.290 --> 00:43:00.430 Caroline (they/she): kind of went on to answer the other bits, and then, as we were kind of sitting. I was kind of 380 00:43:01.370 --> 00:43:06.610 Caroline (they/she): to be honest, being a bit like derogatory about like that reflection of that's what had come up. 381 00:43:06.710 --> 00:43:10.853 Caroline (they/she): And then and then I remembered that it was just this week that 382 00:43:11.410 --> 00:43:16.500 Caroline (they/she): been invited to do this exercise about our fields from 383 00:43:17.460 --> 00:43:18.740 Caroline (they/she): It was from 384 00:43:19.090 --> 00:43:20.050 Caroline (they/she): a 385 00:43:20.360 --> 00:43:27.690 Caroline (they/she): disgracefully don't know their name, but they're like on Instagram. They're like called co-culture one. And they share indigenous practices. 386 00:43:28.835 --> 00:43:29.940 Caroline (they/she): Around. 387 00:43:30.520 --> 00:43:32.469 Caroline (they/she): And it's about like around like 388 00:43:33.420 --> 00:43:47.500 Caroline (they/she): how people in how like, how people in her community introduce themselves, and really connecting themselves to the land of the land where they are and where they're from and where they're in right relationship to and what their yearnings are. 389 00:43:47.820 --> 00:43:50.260 Caroline (they/she): and and how 390 00:43:50.400 --> 00:43:53.199 Caroline (they/she): she was talking in this video about how 391 00:43:53.390 --> 00:43:55.489 Caroline (they/she): you know when you've been really cut off. 392 00:43:55.660 --> 00:44:03.510 Caroline (they/she): you know, from colonialism. From all of these things, then you become like a vacuum. And that's how this kind of cultural extraction 393 00:44:03.750 --> 00:44:08.819 Caroline (they/she): kind of happens. And so she invited us to do this field, you know. 394 00:44:09.110 --> 00:44:15.620 Caroline (they/she): So actually, on my other page in my journal, is my field of of all of these places 395 00:44:15.690 --> 00:44:23.089 Caroline (they/she): is of, like all the lands that I'm connected to, and the stories and the people and the yearnings 396 00:44:23.530 --> 00:44:25.320 Caroline (they/she): and the values. 397 00:44:26.530 --> 00:44:28.169 Caroline (they/she): And I hadn't really. 398 00:44:29.200 --> 00:44:36.870 Caroline (they/she): So yeah. So then actually realise that that was the answer to the later question of what practice had been really helpful in deepening my connection to self 399 00:44:38.040 --> 00:44:39.330 Caroline (they/she): that's willing to share. 400 00:44:42.920 --> 00:44:44.410 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Thank you so much. 401 00:44:45.750 --> 00:44:51.639 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and I'm appreciating to your like proviso as reflecting on what I wrote. 402 00:44:51.820 --> 00:44:57.969 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): It's very vulnerable right to move from from from the truth, speaking like 403 00:44:58.850 --> 00:45:01.329 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): sometimes, there's things that I think we. 404 00:45:01.580 --> 00:45:04.039 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): at least for me, like I'll write it. 405 00:45:04.090 --> 00:45:06.000 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): but it's like not quite 406 00:45:06.050 --> 00:45:17.979 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): real yet, or true yet, but I'm still writing it, and then kind of reflecting on it and living into it, and then speaking, it is another layer, and you know. So so I just really appreciate you sharing. 407 00:45:18.850 --> 00:45:19.650 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Yeah. 408 00:45:21.420 --> 00:45:22.830 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): anyone else. 409 00:45:31.470 --> 00:45:39.570 Bonnie Walker: So one of our last sessions I can't remember if it was office hours or another Pujan practice, but somebody we had talked about 410 00:45:42.620 --> 00:46:06.180 Bonnie Walker: There was somebody who said something about oh, this I was had a conversation with another Yoga teacher who likes to make her students or their students suffer. And I was like, Oh, yeah, I can write a book about that. And and somebody said, Do it. And they suggested a book writing club, and I looked into it. I didn't sign up for the club, but I did get in touch with a friend of mine who is an editor, and so we are kind of exchanging. 411 00:46:06.580 --> 00:46:16.589 Bonnie Walker: She just was diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis, so she can't practice like she like regular like she it's too much hands and feet 412 00:46:16.980 --> 00:46:19.980 Bonnie Walker: flow classes. So she got a hammock 413 00:46:20.740 --> 00:46:23.390 Bonnie Walker: like a aerial yoga hammock 414 00:46:24.290 --> 00:46:28.880 Bonnie Walker: and so we're kind of exchanging her kind of editing and 415 00:46:28.910 --> 00:46:37.230 Bonnie Walker: accountability, budding me, writing, and me just like hang out and giving her space, holding space for her to practice in her hammock. So 416 00:46:39.510 --> 00:46:42.289 Bonnie Walker: So I was thinking about my legacy because I 417 00:46:42.590 --> 00:46:45.956 Bonnie Walker: I'm writing a lot and 418 00:46:49.900 --> 00:46:58.810 Bonnie Walker: I had this instinct that you know the abuse in Yoga is starting up again. It's it's reopening just like everything else after the pandemic. 419 00:46:59.250 --> 00:47:03.429 Bonnie Walker: And then it turned out, it's actually true. I was trying to look up like 420 00:47:03.720 --> 00:47:09.929 Bonnie Walker: Bickram previously, and oh, yeah, guess what he was in Vancouver, BC. Last year. I just. 421 00:47:09.930 --> 00:47:10.740 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): So mean. 422 00:47:11.116 --> 00:47:16.380 Bonnie Walker: So I guess I was thinking a lot about legacy, and you know how 423 00:47:16.420 --> 00:47:24.789 Bonnie Walker: we can protect ourselves like how we can really decolonize Yoga and and really provide protection for ourselves, so that 424 00:47:25.090 --> 00:47:34.950 Bonnie Walker: these predators can't keep coming back, cause it's not just him that the other predators that I know of are also reopening after the pandemic. So, 425 00:47:37.140 --> 00:47:41.150 Bonnie Walker: yeah, I want a legacy of a safe. 426 00:47:41.180 --> 00:47:44.410 Bonnie Walker: decolonized nurturing yoga. 427 00:47:45.340 --> 00:47:46.465 Bonnie Walker: Worldwide. 428 00:47:48.940 --> 00:47:54.739 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Oh, that's a brilliant vision, and something when you were talking about the 429 00:47:55.630 --> 00:47:57.639 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): gosh! How did you say it was like 430 00:47:58.190 --> 00:48:00.940 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): this, like you're supposed to suffer. 431 00:48:00.990 --> 00:48:02.190 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): How did you put that? 432 00:48:02.380 --> 00:48:03.200 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And. 433 00:48:03.200 --> 00:48:18.629 Bonnie Walker: It was a conversation between somebody at one of a previous ycc! And she said she had had a conversation that morning with a teacher who liked to make their students suffer in in Yoga class. Yeah. Yeah. 434 00:48:18.630 --> 00:48:31.059 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): That. And you're right. You could write a whole book on that. And we need that book right? And it's linked that mindset of saying I'd like to make my students suffer and 435 00:48:31.200 --> 00:48:40.499 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): abuse. Now, of course, it's a continuum right, and I'm not saying every teacher who says that is a abuser or predator. But there's this. 436 00:48:40.570 --> 00:48:44.769 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): this continuum of perpetuating a culture of 437 00:48:44.840 --> 00:48:54.150 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): power over or disembodiment disconnection, disempowerment that leads and lends itself to those things. And so yeah. 438 00:48:54.600 --> 00:48:59.789 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I'd be happy to write the forward just putting it out there. That's good for any of you who write a book. 439 00:49:01.000 --> 00:49:01.666 Bonnie Walker: Thank you. 440 00:49:02.000 --> 00:49:19.129 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Supportive. Right? Yeah, when you're there. Yeah, any of you, whoever write on yoga, you can always reach out to me for for that kind of support. That's really part of I was writing. My legacy is like it's a really around 441 00:49:19.850 --> 00:49:28.290 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): empowering right and connecting with others and uplifting others, and like there's a commitment in the Mahayana tradition. 442 00:49:28.530 --> 00:49:32.469 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): It's a shanty diva poem that says. 443 00:49:33.520 --> 00:49:37.234 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Gosh, I'm gonna look it up. So I don't wanna say it right? Wrong? 444 00:49:45.360 --> 00:49:57.809 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): yes, okay, for as long as space remains, for as long as sentient beings remain. Until then may I, too, remain to dispel the mysteries of the world. 445 00:49:59.530 --> 00:50:00.700 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and I would 446 00:50:00.710 --> 00:50:02.239 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): add on to 447 00:50:03.120 --> 00:50:13.159 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): bring us all to our own expression of freedom and liberation, right like an embodiment and empowerment, so that that for me is like the purpose. 448 00:50:13.430 --> 00:50:16.900 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And so any any kind of actions I can take 449 00:50:17.020 --> 00:50:20.969 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): that lead in that direction feel like it's on on path. 450 00:50:21.679 --> 00:50:26.310 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And so I just love that. What you're sharing, Bonnie, because it's also reminding me of 451 00:50:26.400 --> 00:50:40.439 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): that shifting of vicious cycles to virtuous cycles like we? We get to be the legacy changers, and I also wanna name for other folks who are like, well, that sounds great, and I'm really excited for you, Bonnie, and you, Susanna, right. But 452 00:50:41.290 --> 00:50:55.709 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I had to go through so much of the vicious part before I could get to the clarity part, and not to say that I ever anyone or myself ever deserved any of that. But it's been a process. 453 00:50:56.070 --> 00:51:00.290 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And so, wherever you are in that process is so. 454 00:51:00.610 --> 00:51:05.299 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): it's just so welcome. And I'm dropping the. I think it's Shanti diva 455 00:51:06.576 --> 00:51:08.170 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): quote. Yeah. 456 00:51:08.710 --> 00:51:14.499 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Such a view. It's the end of a long poem. That tentative wrote 457 00:51:16.300 --> 00:51:17.760 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): anyone else. 458 00:51:23.360 --> 00:51:24.790 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Yeah, sweet. 459 00:51:28.090 --> 00:51:36.000 wade: Hey? Good afternoon. I wanted to respond to the legacy question on self inquiry. 460 00:51:39.510 --> 00:51:40.350 wade: area. 461 00:51:40.560 --> 00:51:43.879 wade: This is like a really deep one, because it's like 462 00:51:45.510 --> 00:51:48.759 wade: what I've devoted my life to for the past 10 years 463 00:51:48.960 --> 00:51:50.040 wade: has been 464 00:51:50.756 --> 00:51:53.950 wade: moving back to my ancestral family's land 465 00:51:54.070 --> 00:51:57.860 wade: and revitalizing like our spring summer. 466 00:51:57.930 --> 00:52:01.460 wade: She camp where we used to migrate to when I was a kid. 467 00:52:01.640 --> 00:52:07.330 wade: and I've been living out here with like no running water and electricity. And I live in a community where it's like 468 00:52:07.370 --> 00:52:11.739 wade: predominantly elderly, because most people like the way capitalism 469 00:52:11.990 --> 00:52:16.110 wade: and colonization has impacted our community is like people move off 470 00:52:16.704 --> 00:52:28.325 wade: the res, or they move to like where the running water and electricity is like the border. The border towns we call them like the towns right off the Res, or like these development zones. And so 471 00:52:28.790 --> 00:52:34.779 wade: it's kind of been like this process of like going up this hill like this like big 472 00:52:34.790 --> 00:52:36.569 wade: or do? It's like a mountain. 473 00:52:37.220 --> 00:52:38.809 wade: Climbing this thing 474 00:52:38.870 --> 00:52:40.080 wade: to like 475 00:52:40.220 --> 00:52:41.450 wade: reclaim 476 00:52:42.040 --> 00:52:46.280 wade: space and land in my ancestral territory. 477 00:52:46.380 --> 00:52:58.950 wade: And that's like what I've dreamt of, like my legacy is, is like to have a space for the younger generation to be able to like, come back home to and to 478 00:52:59.340 --> 00:53:03.529 wade: have roots in in the space that's like, not the city. 479 00:53:03.570 --> 00:53:06.610 wade: And it's like come to like a really big like 480 00:53:06.750 --> 00:53:09.369 wade: moment in time, because of 481 00:53:09.440 --> 00:53:11.540 wade: my uncle falling, and, like 482 00:53:11.580 --> 00:53:16.840 wade: the need to like care, take all these animals out here, and, like my other elderly 483 00:53:16.890 --> 00:53:18.299 wade: who are out here. 484 00:53:18.330 --> 00:53:25.420 wade: and so like that's been like my driving force is like this legacy for, like the past 10 years. But like what's really come up 485 00:53:25.540 --> 00:53:28.570 wade: in the self, inquiry is like how 486 00:53:28.660 --> 00:53:29.990 wade: I need to like. 487 00:53:30.240 --> 00:53:33.010 wade: I I need to meditate on joy 488 00:53:33.160 --> 00:53:34.710 wade: and happiness. 489 00:53:34.720 --> 00:53:41.660 wade: like to create that legacy because it's been like the narrative has been like about like suffering. 490 00:53:41.730 --> 00:53:48.090 wade: you know, like moving out here and like learning to live with no running water, you know, like or like dealing with like 491 00:53:48.400 --> 00:53:50.289 wade: the realities of like. 492 00:53:50.720 --> 00:53:56.050 wade: yeah, like, not being able to like, turn on an air conditioning or like. 493 00:53:56.740 --> 00:54:09.579 wade: if you want heat, you gotta build a fire like it's like a lot of work right? And so like so much of the past 10 years has been like making peace with like the suffering. But now it's like. Actually, it's like holding that space for like 494 00:54:09.620 --> 00:54:11.479 wade: joy and like 495 00:54:12.060 --> 00:54:16.359 wade: calmness and happiness and peace that's actually gonna like. 496 00:54:18.090 --> 00:54:21.150 wade: get you to like the the top 497 00:54:21.500 --> 00:54:24.690 wade: of like this mountain like you've come so far 498 00:54:24.840 --> 00:54:25.860 wade: with like 499 00:54:25.980 --> 00:54:29.510 wade: suffering. But like you're not gonna get up 500 00:54:29.850 --> 00:54:31.620 wade: to where you need to go 501 00:54:31.850 --> 00:54:33.830 wade: by like focusing on that 502 00:54:33.910 --> 00:54:44.979 wade: like it's it's actually joy. And it's it seems so counter, because, like, there's so much work to do like all the time that it's like can just be like, Go, go, go like, get up and go. 503 00:54:45.130 --> 00:54:45.910 wade: But 504 00:54:46.240 --> 00:54:51.389 wade: it's actually like cultivating something that like while it's rooted in. 505 00:54:51.420 --> 00:54:59.630 wade: You know, all this ancestral knowledge and tradition. It's still, it looks very different than how it's been presented. 506 00:54:59.780 --> 00:55:01.980 wade: because it's also like 507 00:55:02.220 --> 00:55:03.810 wade: taking on something 508 00:55:03.890 --> 00:55:11.090 wade: from a generation. The generation that's been managing. It is like the boarding school generation, and all of that, like punitive 509 00:55:12.590 --> 00:55:14.070 wade: mentality. 510 00:55:14.230 --> 00:55:15.440 wade: And like 511 00:55:15.500 --> 00:55:18.220 wade: that grind mentality has like driven 512 00:55:18.390 --> 00:55:23.999 wade: like how things look and how they're shaped. But like in creating this 513 00:55:24.030 --> 00:55:27.190 wade: reality for the children, for the kids like 514 00:55:27.280 --> 00:55:35.810 wade: it, it needs center graduate. So that's a lot. But it. It's I don't know. It just brought up a lot for me. So I wanted to share about that. 515 00:55:36.730 --> 00:55:40.419 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Thank you for sharing. I saw some people have some like 516 00:55:40.810 --> 00:55:42.749 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Ahas as well 517 00:55:44.440 --> 00:55:45.570 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): about 518 00:55:45.740 --> 00:55:47.150 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): like you've come. 519 00:55:47.330 --> 00:55:57.369 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I had my aunt. Was you come this far with suffering, and now it's like the joy is needed. It reminded me of one to not hunt, we said, like 520 00:55:57.520 --> 00:56:03.699 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): a true practitioner, can always find a feeling of joy in any circumstance, and that. 521 00:56:03.990 --> 00:56:08.640 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and also of the the sunasine, the the renunciates, who. 522 00:56:09.270 --> 00:56:17.469 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): like they, either experience neutrality or a kind of joy, even in very challenging conditions. There's like a way that 523 00:56:20.390 --> 00:56:22.289 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): it's like a spiritual 524 00:56:22.780 --> 00:56:23.450 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): path. 525 00:56:23.710 --> 00:56:24.940 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And 526 00:56:25.030 --> 00:56:35.300 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): sometimes that spiritual path is very like we're on it through suffering, and then sometimes it kind of flips, and it can be the same thing. But it's just a totally different experience. So 527 00:56:35.320 --> 00:56:36.410 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): thank you 528 00:56:39.280 --> 00:56:42.310 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): so much appreciation for each of you. 529 00:56:42.720 --> 00:56:48.332 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and we're gonna close in a moment. I wanna invite you to 530 00:56:49.690 --> 00:56:59.329 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): to if there's a takeaway or an Aha! And it may not even be fully formed. So you don't need to put it in the chat, but maybe just anchor it if it's there for you, for yourself, or like a 531 00:56:59.510 --> 00:57:02.490 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): feeling tone that you're going to continue with. 532 00:57:04.570 --> 00:57:05.780 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And then 533 00:57:05.890 --> 00:57:09.444 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I also want to let you know I'm working on 534 00:57:10.780 --> 00:57:12.100 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): What's the word like 535 00:57:12.150 --> 00:57:17.869 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): this is sort of some of the same things that some of us are working on, like not just defining myself by my 536 00:57:18.090 --> 00:57:21.700 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): role or by my kind of job. And so 537 00:57:21.720 --> 00:57:24.979 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): it's. It's a little bit of a challenge. I, 538 00:57:25.010 --> 00:57:27.897 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): in the sense that I've been leading 539 00:57:28.620 --> 00:57:32.360 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): office hours every week for 5 years. 540 00:57:32.440 --> 00:57:40.430 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and I think I've missed like maybe 4 and 3 of which I got a sub one I cancelled once. 541 00:57:40.600 --> 00:57:42.690 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And so one of my things 542 00:57:42.890 --> 00:57:50.130 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): that I'm exploring is like, it's gonna be. It's okay. If if there needs to be a break like it's not, it's okay, like I can 543 00:57:50.240 --> 00:57:58.169 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): cause there's a part of me that's so committed right that I feel like I have to be there. But all this to say, I'm traveling next our next office hours. 544 00:57:58.620 --> 00:58:13.919 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and I don't think it's gonna be practical for me to come on just because I'll be in Costa Rica. And so which, by the way, have scholarship spots. If you're interested, there's a few extra spots in that. In that retreat. It's in 2 weeks. 545 00:58:14.334 --> 00:58:20.360 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): But it basically pay what you what you wish, Spot. So if anyone wants a spot. 546 00:58:20.750 --> 00:58:25.719 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I'll drop my my email in, you can email me but 547 00:58:29.760 --> 00:58:35.029 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I yeah, I think that instead of trying to like rearrange, or 548 00:58:35.190 --> 00:58:52.219 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): have a subcom. I think we'll just say we'll we're gonna miss that office hours. I just wanna like check that out with you all before I officially make it official, because then we'll gather again at the end of at the end of May for our pilgrimage, and puja and 549 00:58:52.982 --> 00:58:54.820 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): yeah, thank you. 550 00:58:54.890 --> 00:58:56.300 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): It's helpful. 551 00:58:56.340 --> 00:58:57.869 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): It's helpful to like. 552 00:58:59.930 --> 00:59:01.270 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): trust the 553 00:59:02.310 --> 00:59:04.090 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): the community as well. 554 00:59:04.610 --> 00:59:07.740 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And yes, thank you. I'm really excited. 555 00:59:07.840 --> 00:59:11.980 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Yeah. Renew your password. Yes. 556 00:59:12.822 --> 00:59:14.749 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): yeah, thank you. 557 00:59:16.430 --> 00:59:23.040 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): So I'll see you all then, in a month at our next pilgrimage, and puja! 558 00:59:23.580 --> 00:59:27.389 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And I'm wishing you so much joy and so much 559 00:59:27.410 --> 00:59:30.180 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): care and so much support with you, that. 560 00:59:30.550 --> 00:59:31.880 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and 561 00:59:32.740 --> 00:59:36.990 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): many blessings, and so we can unmute and say goodbye. 562 00:59:39.040 --> 00:59:40.339 Aviana Xochitl (she/her/ella): Thank you all. Bye. 563 00:59:40.340 --> 00:59:40.780 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Thanks. 564 00:59:40.780 --> 00:59:42.309 Bonnie Walker: Hi! You're ready! 565 00:59:42.310 --> 00:59:43.840 Cleo - Turtle Island: Everyone safe travels. 566 00:59:44.110 --> 00:59:45.639 Justine (she/her): Goodnight. Safe chapels. 567 00:59:45.760 --> 00:59:46.690 Justine (she/her): Thank you. 568 00:59:47.060 --> 00:59:48.150 wade: Take care! 569 00:59:49.210 --> 00:59:51.290 Caroline (they/she): Fine! Good night, everybody. Bye. 570 00:59:51.850 --> 00:59:52.490 Bonnie Walker: Night.