WEBVTT 1 00:00:01.660 --> 00:00:06.500 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Welcome, welcome, welcome everyone to our April 2 00:00:06.620 --> 00:00:08.720 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): pilgrimage and Puta. 3 00:00:09.620 --> 00:00:21.850 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I am with you from Portugal. I am in Lagos, which is in the south part of Portugal. So i'm in a different place, just orienting you. 4 00:00:22.320 --> 00:00:24.910 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and it is night time where I am. 5 00:00:25.250 --> 00:00:33.820 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): It's 9 Pm. So i'm feeling for our European folks, our folks who join us from that time zone a lot. 6 00:00:34.010 --> 00:00:39.770 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and i'd love to invite you to drop in the tat. 7 00:00:40.550 --> 00:00:42.030 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): You know it's been a 8 00:00:42.080 --> 00:00:48.660 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): an interesting time, a time of a lot of like reflecting on energy. There's a lot happening 9 00:00:48.850 --> 00:00:50.290 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): in the 10 00:00:51.480 --> 00:00:59.820 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): in the stars, but also in the world. And so I thought that, and it's it's a time of 11 00:01:00.370 --> 00:01:05.950 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): one of the ceremonies in Yoga Vedic traditions that we 12 00:01:06.060 --> 00:01:29.090 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): just moved through is a celebration of Haneman and Hanuman has the qualities of grounded bravery, of devotion, and of a lot of like self knowledge and self inquiry. To be able to know oneself so well that he can show up for others. And so I thought we would start with dropping in the chat 13 00:01:29.310 --> 00:01:31.910 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): something that makes you feel 14 00:01:32.060 --> 00:01:35.720 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): grounded or rooted or breathed. 15 00:01:38.330 --> 00:01:45.210 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and it could be anything could be a couple of things but things that bring forth the quality of 16 00:01:48.590 --> 00:01:50.240 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): doing this. 17 00:01:54.420 --> 00:01:57.200 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): That 18 00:02:07.850 --> 00:02:08.490 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Hmm. 19 00:02:11.520 --> 00:02:13.690 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Fresh air home. 20 00:02:14.210 --> 00:02:20.340 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): My husband's hugs talking to my family on the phone. Since I don't live near them. 21 00:02:21.050 --> 00:02:25.160 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Yeah, feeling sunshine on my skin trees. 22 00:02:26.890 --> 00:02:32.860 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): self-reaky practice and grounding earth, chord, visualization and meditation 23 00:02:33.070 --> 00:02:38.260 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): trees, sunshine, green, or you plants sticking with the tough stuff. Yeah. 24 00:02:38.490 --> 00:02:41.760 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Speaking up for myself, holding boundaries. 25 00:02:42.470 --> 00:02:46.270 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): walking in the sunshine. It's a nice breeze. 26 00:02:46.870 --> 00:02:48.740 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): perfect on the Earth 27 00:02:48.770 --> 00:02:54.510 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Rivers getting a good friend. Hmm. Tipping my feet and lake water 28 00:02:54.930 --> 00:03:01.010 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): routine birds, and I want to sun getting fresh air, chanting Mantra 29 00:03:01.080 --> 00:03:07.510 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): been spending time and devotion to. He had him on this this year, but to actually have a drinking water. 30 00:03:07.530 --> 00:03:16.960 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Yes, Cleo, their feet on the ground. I was just doing this before we started co-regulating with my little dog outside. 31 00:03:17.140 --> 00:03:19.860 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Yes, Rachel, and I just 32 00:03:19.870 --> 00:03:23.670 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): so i'm in a new place for this just coming on. 33 00:03:23.750 --> 00:03:33.860 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): It's temporarily new. I'm visiting Katerina, who I work with and is part of the team and doing like a little 34 00:03:33.900 --> 00:03:35.880 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): retreat practice. 35 00:03:36.750 --> 00:03:50.610 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And she lives in Portugal. And so the choices like we could meet on line, or you could come and meet with me where I live and such. Okay, i'm gonna come and meet you. Because how often do I ever have a chance to 36 00:03:50.640 --> 00:04:06.680 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): to meet someone that I work with in person. And so in a new place. I'm very grateful to meet with her. And then there was a little puppy that looked like harmony. And so I got to co-regulate and just connect and really enjoy that that doggy outside right now. 37 00:04:07.060 --> 00:04:08.140 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): So 38 00:04:08.320 --> 00:04:21.870 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): as we're all coming in, we're dropping if you would like qualities of I put rounded this. I like that, too. The round ground in this rounded means rootedness, bravery. 39 00:04:22.000 --> 00:04:30.900 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And then, if you'd like to have some water or a candle, I actually don't have the candle, but I have water, and i'm going to get one out of. 40 00:04:33.810 --> 00:04:34.880 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): So 41 00:04:35.380 --> 00:04:39.580 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): this is my this is like a lavender 42 00:04:39.830 --> 00:04:43.730 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): sachet that I sometimes bring with me, in order to 43 00:04:43.870 --> 00:04:49.080 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): just have a quality of plants of earth wherever I am. 44 00:04:49.300 --> 00:05:07.460 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And so, if there's something that will help you feel more connected right in this moment, like kind of dropping the I'm Here i'm on zoom so like letting the zoom face go, the student face go. The practice face right like just really like, huh? 45 00:05:07.840 --> 00:05:25.570 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Like how can I show up for me? Grounded? And yes, i'm here in a community, and i'm going to engage. But you don't have to put anything on to do that You can let let those things, those kind of identities or roles 46 00:05:25.600 --> 00:05:30.020 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): go a little bit and just be in the space together. 47 00:05:30.800 --> 00:05:32.920 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Hmm. Yes. 48 00:05:33.860 --> 00:05:41.490 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): my cats, too. Okay, we'll do a drop in in just a moment, welcoming all of us 49 00:05:41.500 --> 00:05:44.300 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): into the space, and 50 00:05:45.340 --> 00:05:47.780 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I just want to announce our 51 00:05:48.710 --> 00:06:03.610 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): winner this month of the sharing about about what your you love and what you're learning, Kiera Elliot, You have a beautiful share about why CC: and 52 00:06:03.750 --> 00:06:09.700 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): so if and I will message you, or you can message Andrea, or 53 00:06:09.760 --> 00:06:13.100 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): will be, she'll be emailing you if you're 54 00:06:13.190 --> 00:06:16.640 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): let's see if you're here. And then 55 00:06:17.980 --> 00:06:22.620 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): so congratulations, congratulations. Yeah, I think we'll be messaging. 56 00:06:23.090 --> 00:06:40.920 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): So that is very exciting. And then for those of you who are here. Just remember you can, if you like, if it feels inspired organically from what you're learning. If you share you want to, then you can talk that in the form, and you're entered to win. 57 00:06:40.960 --> 00:06:53.230 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And the one other thing I wanted to mention is that have a couple of treats. Speaking of like going and being in person coming up. And so, if you're interested in those. 58 00:06:53.280 --> 00:07:00.830 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): it didn't prepare this ahead of time. But I think I can find the repeat link, there's they're very specific and kind of 59 00:07:01.220 --> 00:07:19.320 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): to our identity focused. And then one is for anyone who wants to work on solidarity practices, and that the solidarity practice one is in the summer at with to be valid practices for being a a change maker that works across lines of identity and difference. 60 00:07:19.320 --> 00:07:27.550 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And then there's a queer and transfer retreat at Kropalu also in the summer, and a 61 00:07:27.750 --> 00:07:48.630 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): a retreat for folks of color that is coming up in September. That is really a deep dive into amplifying your voice, and if there's something that you want to work on and like, bring out the side of me that I don't often get to share. I'm happy to share here if you have questions or you drop questions in for our office hours. 62 00:07:49.910 --> 00:07:56.910 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): but like coaching and support, and really growing your your passions. 63 00:07:56.920 --> 00:08:06.130 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and could be your businesses or efforts to leadership in the world, particularly in focus for folks of color, because we often don't have those spaces. 64 00:08:06.370 --> 00:08:10.950 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): So those are coming up just as they're on my mind. Thank you so much, and 65 00:08:12.020 --> 00:08:16.230 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): to mention, if you are interested in meeting in person. 66 00:08:16.280 --> 00:08:17.560 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): It's so. 67 00:08:17.720 --> 00:08:19.760 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): So I'm: joyful. 68 00:08:21.340 --> 00:08:22.460 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Thank you. 69 00:08:22.870 --> 00:08:33.350 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Okay. So what we're dropping in the chats. Besides, those links is anything that makes you feel grounded and rooted. 70 00:08:33.570 --> 00:08:35.030 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): connected. 71 00:08:35.350 --> 00:08:41.610 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Pause for a moment to see if anyone else wants to drop this in, and then we're going to do a little practice. 72 00:08:43.210 --> 00:08:44.140 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Hmm. 73 00:08:46.450 --> 00:08:47.490 Okay. 74 00:08:53.110 --> 00:08:54.620 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Green tea. 75 00:08:54.850 --> 00:08:56.910 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): hugging my kids 76 00:08:58.530 --> 00:09:06.760 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): hugs from loved ones speeding deeply in nature. Yes, switching the air around my seat with frankincense 77 00:09:07.010 --> 00:09:08.270 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): feet in the earth. 78 00:09:08.380 --> 00:09:11.700 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): each walk. 79 00:09:12.110 --> 00:09:21.890 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Yes. tinting and singing. welcoming all of you. And if you're just coming in, reminding us that you can let go of like the zoom 80 00:09:21.990 --> 00:09:34.370 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): face like student. You don't have to try so hard or worry about that. Just be, you know, be we're being together, we're exploring yoga part of this, as I wanted to 81 00:09:34.370 --> 00:09:44.210 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): explorer. Some people are on that theme, but also runs through self inquiry through all of the 82 00:09:44.350 --> 00:09:45.440 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and 83 00:09:46.870 --> 00:09:50.580 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): part of exploring is letting go 84 00:09:51.230 --> 00:09:55.340 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): of the blocks, letting go of the things that we put on 85 00:09:56.520 --> 00:10:03.220 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): the roles that we identify with the things where we're kind of trying or over efforting to just be like. 86 00:10:03.640 --> 00:10:14.640 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Oh, yeah, I love that where I'm good at that. Or I enjoy doing that, or i'm gonna rest. And it just happens that I started writing a poem, or you know it's 87 00:10:14.800 --> 00:10:19.150 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): self inquiry can be can be. 88 00:10:20.620 --> 00:10:24.220 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): He's more easily aided through 89 00:10:25.680 --> 00:10:36.470 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): less effort, rather than more so, an invitation into less efforts today and through your week, and with that we'll begin our practice. So you can 90 00:10:36.750 --> 00:10:41.180 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): find an useful way to be, maybe sitting, standing, lying down. 91 00:10:45.360 --> 00:10:47.860 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I that you to breathe deeply 92 00:10:49.030 --> 00:10:50.160 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and 93 00:10:52.070 --> 00:10:53.380 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and out 94 00:11:10.170 --> 00:11:15.560 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): inhale, Raise your arms any amount away from the earth. 95 00:11:16.010 --> 00:11:20.220 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): See if you can lift your arms all the way up on your in here. 96 00:11:21.920 --> 00:11:26.120 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and then pause. and on your exhale. 97 00:11:27.160 --> 00:11:28.850 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Let's come back down. 98 00:11:33.550 --> 00:11:34.660 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): not to that. 99 00:11:34.820 --> 00:11:38.020 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Twice more, my own breath rhythm 100 00:11:58.590 --> 00:12:01.260 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): this time. Inhale. 101 00:12:03.470 --> 00:12:05.410 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Twist to one side. 102 00:12:05.830 --> 00:12:16.320 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): If you're sitting in a chair, maybe using the back of the chair to twist a little deeper hand on the side of your leg. You're lying on the earth. Maybe you're twisting your knees. 103 00:12:16.630 --> 00:12:27.080 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): You're standing option to the wall wherever you are in. Now exhale a little bit deeper into the twist from your belly than your chest 104 00:12:43.640 --> 00:12:47.460 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): nice on the next exhale. Lift in your arms up. 105 00:12:48.390 --> 00:12:49.550 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): take a moment 106 00:12:50.230 --> 00:12:52.460 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and center to notice 107 00:12:52.750 --> 00:12:54.290 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): how that feels 108 00:12:56.150 --> 00:12:59.620 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): as you're ready. You can lift your arms 109 00:13:00.030 --> 00:13:03.650 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): back up. taking your time. 110 00:13:04.750 --> 00:13:08.790 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and then exhale. twist to the other side 111 00:13:12.260 --> 00:13:17.030 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): just as you did. Hmm for side. 112 00:13:18.580 --> 00:13:23.320 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Allow yourself to test in your belly than your test. 113 00:13:23.400 --> 00:13:26.510 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and then your eyes twisting around 114 00:13:48.260 --> 00:13:50.100 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): here. 115 00:13:56.090 --> 00:13:58.330 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and how it's up 116 00:13:58.700 --> 00:14:03.520 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): this time invitation to come forward towards. 117 00:14:05.720 --> 00:14:19.250 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and that might be on the table. It might be over your legs, feeling on the earth. Maybe you have a little more prone your choice if you're on a table, maybe. Use your hands and give your head a little massage. 118 00:14:21.550 --> 00:14:25.690 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): However, you would like to practice a forward fold. 119 00:14:27.940 --> 00:14:28.820 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Hmm! 120 00:14:30.070 --> 00:14:32.050 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And deep breath in 121 00:14:33.150 --> 00:14:34.970 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): deep breath out. 122 00:14:40.830 --> 00:14:45.310 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): taking your hands, giving your neck a little massage. 123 00:15:00.000 --> 00:15:01.800 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and inhale 124 00:15:02.070 --> 00:15:04.980 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): back absolutely, slowly. 125 00:15:05.280 --> 00:15:10.990 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): rising up into a back end. And this could be a gentle background to the side, so you can 126 00:15:11.270 --> 00:15:14.730 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): see me. So i'm just gonna place my hands on my low back. 127 00:15:14.870 --> 00:15:17.740 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Lift my heart up towards the sky 128 00:15:21.760 --> 00:15:24.270 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): back behind you. 129 00:15:33.530 --> 00:15:36.310 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): If you find that your breathing is 130 00:15:36.600 --> 00:15:39.570 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): constricted, maybe coming out just a little bit. 131 00:15:40.600 --> 00:15:42.100 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): meeting deeply. 132 00:15:44.290 --> 00:15:46.740 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): standing your test up 133 00:15:47.870 --> 00:15:53.980 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and out in front of you. Your shoulder blades together towards one another. 134 00:15:55.490 --> 00:15:58.630 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): lengthening through the crown of your head. 135 00:16:01.690 --> 00:16:03.890 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): One more back here 136 00:16:07.820 --> 00:16:11.190 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): gently come back to neutral. 137 00:16:13.890 --> 00:16:16.470 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Take a deep breath into your nose 138 00:16:17.090 --> 00:16:20.930 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and release through your mouth or through your nose with a sound. 139 00:16:21.520 --> 00:16:22.730 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Hmm! 140 00:16:24.710 --> 00:16:27.670 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I do that again, this time making a sound 141 00:16:27.680 --> 00:16:30.360 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): you need pulling out through your lips. 142 00:16:34.860 --> 00:16:36.320 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): It's more. 143 00:16:38.010 --> 00:16:39.140 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Hmm. 144 00:16:42.670 --> 00:16:43.660 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Hmm. 145 00:16:44.010 --> 00:16:47.370 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Your shoulders up towards your ears. 146 00:16:47.940 --> 00:16:49.590 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Welcome back 147 00:16:50.030 --> 00:16:52.760 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): down, Make some circles 148 00:16:53.280 --> 00:16:54.880 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): with your shoulders 149 00:16:59.460 --> 00:17:00.950 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): one way. 150 00:17:02.510 --> 00:17:05.859 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): then the other way. 151 00:17:14.640 --> 00:17:16.630 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): One more circle here 152 00:17:18.140 --> 00:17:22.839 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): at least your shoulders actually let's bring them up towards our ears. 153 00:17:22.920 --> 00:17:24.750 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and gently or 154 00:17:25.000 --> 00:17:27.490 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): quickly, just dropping them down. 155 00:17:28.790 --> 00:17:31.990 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): You can do that a few times with your breath, if you like. 156 00:17:35.070 --> 00:17:36.090 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Kind of like. 157 00:17:36.120 --> 00:17:38.840 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): We're letting go of some weight. 158 00:17:40.650 --> 00:17:44.150 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): something that maybe you want to brush off so this 159 00:17:46.690 --> 00:17:49.670 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): one ear towards one shoulder. 160 00:17:50.290 --> 00:17:56.910 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and you can use your hands on the side that's stretching through your neck to give yourself a little size if you'd like. 161 00:17:57.200 --> 00:18:04.230 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): or stretch that out away from you. If you want a little more tension, you can bring 162 00:18:04.330 --> 00:18:10.480 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): the hand on the side that you're stretching up and over to the side of your head, or even towards the here. 163 00:18:10.960 --> 00:18:14.670 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and get a little bit of traction there. 164 00:18:16.240 --> 00:18:18.420 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): pleasing down towards the earth 165 00:18:21.050 --> 00:18:22.790 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): towards the sky 166 00:18:38.540 --> 00:18:42.800 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Gently release your hand if it's on top of your head. 167 00:18:43.100 --> 00:18:47.820 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Use that hand to lift your head up, back to neutral. 168 00:18:52.170 --> 00:18:55.850 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Take a moment to feel how that feels. 169 00:18:56.020 --> 00:19:01.580 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): We shift to the other side. The other year certainly 170 00:19:01.810 --> 00:19:06.320 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): slowly comes down towards your shoulder and shoulder down towards the earth. 171 00:19:07.270 --> 00:19:11.940 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): maybe using him on the Saturday stretching to massage. 172 00:19:13.980 --> 00:19:15.010 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Hmm. 173 00:19:21.070 --> 00:19:21.890 Thanks. 174 00:19:23.130 --> 00:19:27.490 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): If you'd like on the side you can bring the other hand over 175 00:19:28.370 --> 00:19:30.210 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): little traction. 176 00:19:30.370 --> 00:19:37.750 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): See what you'd like to do with that arms, stretching it out, you holding on to the side of the chair, your hip or back 177 00:19:38.980 --> 00:19:40.920 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): deep breath in 178 00:19:44.390 --> 00:19:48.200 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): knowing that each side is not equal. 179 00:19:49.500 --> 00:19:54.780 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): not symmetrical. If you don't leave symmetrical, live so. 180 00:19:55.340 --> 00:19:56.240 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Hmm. 181 00:19:58.010 --> 00:20:01.550 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And we don't usually have symmetrical bodies. 182 00:20:02.660 --> 00:20:07.650 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): So just kind of reveling in the tilt. The wobble 183 00:20:07.680 --> 00:20:09.670 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): no like our Earth 184 00:20:10.140 --> 00:20:16.550 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): doesn't circle the in a perfect circle. It's an ellipse that's part of why 185 00:20:16.620 --> 00:20:22.000 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): we have all sorts of unique things, like months with different numbers of days and 186 00:20:22.570 --> 00:20:31.980 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): No, no. there is the tides that come and go in different ways. There's so much that is not exact 187 00:20:34.200 --> 00:20:35.650 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): in the universe. 188 00:20:36.910 --> 00:20:38.510 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and then you and me 189 00:20:40.400 --> 00:20:42.140 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): one more breath here. 190 00:20:45.380 --> 00:20:48.580 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): using your hand to helping 191 00:20:48.610 --> 00:20:50.130 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): head to center. 192 00:20:53.260 --> 00:20:59.910 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And when you find that place I invite you to start to make some circles with your body. 193 00:21:00.730 --> 00:21:02.370 One direction. 194 00:21:02.840 --> 00:21:11.070 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): We'll spend a little time here circling in this direction, and they might be large and the next small. It's up to you how you would like to 195 00:21:12.040 --> 00:21:13.950 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): take this invitation 196 00:21:15.510 --> 00:21:19.520 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Be experimenting with making an ellipse, not a circle. 197 00:21:20.570 --> 00:21:22.540 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Maybe it's not exactly 198 00:21:22.940 --> 00:21:23.640 yeah 199 00:21:23.680 --> 00:21:24.810 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): symmetrical 200 00:21:26.180 --> 00:21:29.640 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): weaves and bob and sifts. 201 00:21:31.230 --> 00:21:34.340 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and then circling the other way 202 00:21:48.220 --> 00:21:52.810 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and taking a few circles to come back to 203 00:21:53.930 --> 00:21:55.620 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): your center today. 204 00:21:56.270 --> 00:22:01.560 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): remembering that it's not a perfect center. It's your center right now. 205 00:22:02.300 --> 00:22:05.690 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): rooting down, feeling the grounding in the earth. 206 00:22:06.930 --> 00:22:09.700 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): One thing up towards the sky 207 00:22:11.400 --> 00:22:18.560 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and noticing is your body naturally leaning forward. or naturally continue back. 208 00:22:19.100 --> 00:22:27.200 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And maybe there's something that you're excited about or nervous about that you're leaning forward towards, and bringing your awareness to that. 209 00:22:28.040 --> 00:22:31.360 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): that letting it drop away. 210 00:22:33.120 --> 00:22:34.300 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): No. 211 00:22:35.940 --> 00:22:39.070 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): not getting too tangled in the story. 212 00:22:40.670 --> 00:22:41.270 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And then we 213 00:22:41.300 --> 00:22:42.400 I mean back. 214 00:22:44.950 --> 00:22:47.120 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Let me see if there's anything 215 00:22:47.420 --> 00:22:48.810 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): the past 216 00:22:49.350 --> 00:22:51.060 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): that you're holding on to 217 00:22:53.960 --> 00:22:58.140 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): back also in this inquiry of 218 00:22:59.280 --> 00:23:02.040 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): just reflecting on. Is there something 219 00:23:02.910 --> 00:23:09.270 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): from your past, something you've loved, or something that you've done, or something that was part of you, or 220 00:23:09.520 --> 00:23:10.870 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): you enjoyed 221 00:23:12.960 --> 00:23:14.370 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): that you want to connect with. 222 00:23:16.920 --> 00:23:19.270 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Forward into now. 223 00:23:26.390 --> 00:23:31.100 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): It doesn't have to be some grand thing right? It could be super simple. 224 00:23:32.770 --> 00:23:34.450 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I can be sitting in the sunlight 225 00:23:35.590 --> 00:23:36.750 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): like a cat 226 00:23:38.000 --> 00:23:39.910 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): can be having tea. 227 00:23:41.500 --> 00:23:42.990 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): It's a loved one. 228 00:23:44.080 --> 00:23:48.320 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): It could be a sport. something with your body 229 00:23:52.760 --> 00:23:56.100 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): that you enjoy thinking shapes 230 00:23:56.370 --> 00:23:57.810 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): carving in the mud 231 00:23:59.300 --> 00:24:01.390 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): my river stream. 232 00:24:02.390 --> 00:24:03.460 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and 233 00:24:04.880 --> 00:24:07.290 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): notice the senses. 234 00:24:08.330 --> 00:24:11.520 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): If you don't have any memories that feel 235 00:24:12.400 --> 00:24:16.550 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): like once you want to bring forward acknowledging you, and 236 00:24:16.640 --> 00:24:22.060 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): that, and inviting you to make it up to visualize or imagine 237 00:24:24.300 --> 00:24:30.510 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): something that you think you might enjoy doing. You can see yourself doing that. You haven't done much of lately 238 00:24:44.260 --> 00:24:47.520 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): That awareness. Forward 239 00:24:48.130 --> 00:24:51.440 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): wiggling a little, maybe left and right. 240 00:24:54.040 --> 00:25:00.120 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): If there's any lipsies or unpredictable things 241 00:25:00.680 --> 00:25:02.080 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): that have come up. 242 00:25:04.230 --> 00:25:06.250 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): things that maybe are like 243 00:25:06.700 --> 00:25:08.230 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): the detour that 244 00:25:08.420 --> 00:25:17.750 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): you have a usual way, that you go to work or usual way. You have your meals, or coffee, or tea, or something? Is there make a slight 245 00:25:19.560 --> 00:25:22.490 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): different routes that you might take 246 00:25:22.860 --> 00:25:24.270 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): invites in 247 00:25:24.840 --> 00:25:28.010 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): some self discovery some self inquiry. 248 00:25:30.730 --> 00:25:36.280 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And even if you don't have anything you're thinking of right now. 249 00:25:36.890 --> 00:25:39.070 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): if you'd like, you can invite that 250 00:25:39.450 --> 00:25:42.910 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): adventurousness that grounded bravery 251 00:25:43.050 --> 00:25:46.070 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): into your day and your next week 252 00:25:47.010 --> 00:25:47.960 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): this month 253 00:25:54.660 --> 00:25:59.200 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): to stillness, or you can keep moving if you would like. 254 00:26:01.580 --> 00:26:04.970 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Take some time to connect with 255 00:26:06.660 --> 00:26:10.340 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): yourself just as you are right now. 256 00:26:10.600 --> 00:26:12.810 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Not doesn't have to be 257 00:26:12.960 --> 00:26:15.940 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): super deep or super complicated. 258 00:26:16.300 --> 00:26:17.520 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): It could be 259 00:26:19.360 --> 00:26:20.720 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): what 260 00:26:22.310 --> 00:26:23.690 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): to I love 261 00:26:26.190 --> 00:26:27.180 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): right now. 262 00:26:30.880 --> 00:26:33.060 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): It is inspiring 263 00:26:35.540 --> 00:26:38.110 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): passion or growth 264 00:26:39.330 --> 00:26:40.440 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): right now. 265 00:26:50.090 --> 00:26:51.070 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): because 266 00:26:51.710 --> 00:26:55.040 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): It's often wobbles in this, even in the 267 00:26:56.270 --> 00:26:58.100 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): solo system and the 268 00:26:58.570 --> 00:27:07.560 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): spin of the planets. Are there any blocks or any challenges that i'm experiencing right now 269 00:27:08.560 --> 00:27:09.930 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): bring 270 00:27:10.990 --> 00:27:12.440 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): to my awareness. 271 00:27:15.010 --> 00:27:16.540 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): acknowledging them. 272 00:27:21.320 --> 00:27:23.390 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): maybe softening a little bit. 273 00:27:29.580 --> 00:27:31.180 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): me expanding 274 00:27:31.920 --> 00:27:36.000 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): view. Sometimes I think of those challenges or blocks 275 00:27:36.260 --> 00:27:43.930 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): like right there. They like on literally on my block, or in my house, or, you know, right up close. But if I 276 00:27:44.390 --> 00:27:46.260 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): pan out to 277 00:27:47.950 --> 00:27:49.660 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): my neighborhood or 278 00:27:51.090 --> 00:27:56.660 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): state country. the earth, or even looked down from 279 00:27:57.940 --> 00:27:59.710 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): you from Space 280 00:28:01.430 --> 00:28:08.190 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Doesn't necessarily change the block that that spaciousness allows me 281 00:28:09.160 --> 00:28:13.920 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): to maybe think or feel, or move differently. That's it. 282 00:28:28.180 --> 00:28:30.090 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I'm letting that go 283 00:28:30.420 --> 00:28:37.530 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): our final moments myself in Korea. inviting in 284 00:28:38.720 --> 00:28:42.000 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): in silence connection with 285 00:28:44.260 --> 00:28:48.080 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): either You're small as self like 286 00:28:48.170 --> 00:28:52.010 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): you like For me it would be Susannah, or 287 00:28:52.810 --> 00:28:56.420 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): big as self, like all beings inter being 288 00:28:56.580 --> 00:28:58.110 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): interconnection. 289 00:28:58.470 --> 00:29:03.750 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I'm just seeing if there's any communication through sensation, color, sound 290 00:29:08.160 --> 00:29:09.820 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): that wants to come forth 291 00:29:13.540 --> 00:29:19.650 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): connecting with ourselves and ourselves. and i'll guide you with my voice 292 00:29:20.260 --> 00:29:22.280 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): a minute or so. 293 00:30:58.340 --> 00:31:04.850 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Yeah. he's down knowing to come forward. 294 00:31:06.800 --> 00:31:10.010 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): We begin to move and write and talk. 295 00:31:10.610 --> 00:31:12.250 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): invite you to 296 00:31:13.250 --> 00:31:19.390 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): keep this meditative focus. And then, if you have your journal, or you'd like to write into the chat. 297 00:31:20.950 --> 00:31:23.480 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): taking some time to write 298 00:31:23.500 --> 00:31:26.130 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): anything that came alive for you. 299 00:31:27.940 --> 00:31:30.900 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): My communications. I have 300 00:31:31.320 --> 00:31:34.270 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): explorations of yourself. 301 00:31:35.740 --> 00:31:38.170 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): We'll take a few minutes. 302 00:31:39.400 --> 00:31:42.220 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): See if I can play some music while we right 303 00:35:01.540 --> 00:35:02.110 to 304 00:37:31.630 --> 00:37:33.560 Andrea @alovincoven: Susannah You're muted. 305 00:37:33.770 --> 00:37:35.700 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Thank you. 306 00:37:41.600 --> 00:37:45.040 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): So I wanted to invite us into 307 00:37:45.950 --> 00:37:48.820 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): a little bit of reflection on. 308 00:37:50.080 --> 00:37:54.470 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and in a moment i'll guide folks who would like to share 309 00:37:55.690 --> 00:37:58.260 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): if you would like, into the space. 310 00:37:58.430 --> 00:38:03.510 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Thank you. Yes, I was talking 311 00:38:03.720 --> 00:38:09.050 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): so connected with myself, but all I needed was myself in that moment 312 00:38:09.960 --> 00:38:13.200 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): is 313 00:38:14.540 --> 00:38:25.230 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): how we meet and witness and engage with ourselves. And sometimes it's in order to understand the shadow parts of us that 314 00:38:25.970 --> 00:38:34.060 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): we might need to excavate and explore. Sometimes it's how we connect with our deepest joys. 315 00:38:35.340 --> 00:38:38.240 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): our sense of divine purpose. We're like. 316 00:38:38.300 --> 00:38:53.480 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): you know that kind of magical synergy when you say something, and then, like the place that you're in all of a sudden, you see a trek go by that has like a word that affirms exactly the thing that you were just thinking about doing, you know, like 317 00:38:54.830 --> 00:38:58.640 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): this Isn't mine, but a a friend of mine who 318 00:38:59.650 --> 00:39:10.190 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): did all sorts of other different work in the world, but was thinking, oh, I really love pottery, and then happen to see like 319 00:39:10.220 --> 00:39:13.080 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): truck that was selling pottery going by. 320 00:39:13.250 --> 00:39:20.150 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And it's like. Oh, I think i'm gonna go back to school and became a potter, and is now a like a really wonderful 321 00:39:20.290 --> 00:39:28.000 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): like she teaches at a local college, and she put pottery as her life. You know, from that that like seed, and then the synchronicity. 322 00:39:29.660 --> 00:39:31.080 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): So 323 00:39:32.320 --> 00:39:45.110 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): i'm just gonna read something to you that I was writing about, because for me a big part of my practice is in reconnecting to words, to loving, meeting and loving writing. 324 00:39:45.260 --> 00:39:49.580 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and and yes. 325 00:39:49.740 --> 00:40:02.880 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): so to me. To us a deep emptiness arises when we forget how to connect with ourselves, leading us to experience. Sometimes confusion, loss, emptiness, lack of direction. 326 00:40:03.000 --> 00:40:04.250 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): It's like, yeah, yeah. 327 00:40:04.430 --> 00:40:13.920 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): provides an embodied path of self. Remembering. I also think of as resting in awareness 328 00:40:13.940 --> 00:40:16.120 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): the idea that we are divine. 329 00:40:16.160 --> 00:40:22.150 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): universal consciousness and practicing with rest helps us explore 330 00:40:22.470 --> 00:40:26.430 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): that connection and get to know ourselves in a much deeper 331 00:40:26.510 --> 00:40:28.440 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and more interconnected way. 332 00:40:28.650 --> 00:40:38.290 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): can also help you in not getting so focused on the Us. Or on doing that you burn out. It can be a self calibrating check in 333 00:40:40.220 --> 00:40:50.290 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): that Us. And many of the other energy practices provide the willpower to practice harder, even when you don't feel like it, and provides the pause 334 00:40:50.410 --> 00:40:56.780 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): in which the inquiry becomes, how am I doing? What do I need right now. Who am I? 335 00:40:57.470 --> 00:41:04.690 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Where am I going? Why am I going there? And there's so much wisdom in this past. 336 00:41:07.080 --> 00:41:18.390 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and I wanted to create a space in our on pilgrimage and puja to really take that journey into ourselves. And so I want to 337 00:41:18.880 --> 00:41:31.040 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): invite in your voices, and that could be out loud or in the chat. What are you exploring and what came alive, and who I'm gonna need a little bit here. 338 00:41:31.410 --> 00:41:34.800 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Ada. Oh, so good to see you. 339 00:41:34.940 --> 00:41:35.950 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Hmm. 340 00:41:36.010 --> 00:41:55.330 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I have a desire to use my voice more and express myself. I'm really fired up by toxic workplaces co-workers. I'm so fortunate I will no longer work in this situation, and I just want to name. But I love that. You share this because I know there's folks in the space who are still in it. Right so just knowing there's 341 00:41:55.430 --> 00:42:01.230 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): there's so many ways that we might relate to 342 00:42:01.290 --> 00:42:08.720 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): our self inquiry, and it can be from different different windows on resonance situations. 343 00:42:09.120 --> 00:42:21.270 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I saw how much I suffered with imposter syndrome, and how much I didn't speak up for myself. I feel so activate. I feel so activated, want everyone to know that they deserve to work in an environment that feels safe to them. 344 00:42:21.270 --> 00:42:30.290 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and I know it's so much easier said than done, and it's making me curious how I can continue to dismantle the unhealthy systems that are present within me 345 00:42:30.310 --> 00:42:34.310 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): while making real sustainable change. It is supportive for all folks. 346 00:42:34.660 --> 00:42:39.140 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): How can I dismantle the system without blaming myself or others? Yeah. 347 00:42:39.270 --> 00:42:47.500 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): how can I create a supportive narrative and own a safe space that can truly be felt and heard in a healthy, positive way. Yes. 348 00:42:49.130 --> 00:42:50.480 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): that that inquiry. 349 00:42:53.570 --> 00:42:54.540 Thank you. 350 00:42:55.280 --> 00:43:06.080 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Karen, and you some piece so made some Kappa balancing. I related to T. And satin stillness, holding the warm cup as I said, helped quiet my mind. So it sounds lovely. 351 00:43:07.740 --> 00:43:08.710 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Hmm. 352 00:43:09.970 --> 00:43:12.410 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Would anyone like to share? 353 00:43:12.430 --> 00:43:13.520 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Oh, my. 354 00:43:19.030 --> 00:43:21.570 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): you don't have to have stuff. I'll figure it out 355 00:43:21.800 --> 00:43:31.370 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): by the way, to share like this. By yeah, it could be working through or exploring together. Yes, Rachel. 356 00:43:31.580 --> 00:43:32.440 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Okay. 357 00:43:34.090 --> 00:43:45.570 Rachel (she/her/hers): I just wanted to comment on. I think, Savad Yaya sort of to play on what Rada said. Savad. Yaya helps me recognize. Oh, that's really not 358 00:43:46.140 --> 00:43:52.800 Rachel (she/her/hers): the the impostor syndrome is not? It's not who I really am, I think, saved Yaya. It allows that 359 00:43:52.870 --> 00:43:58.720 Rachel (she/her/hers): inquiry to recognize when that shows up because I think it shows up for many of us for lots of reasons. 360 00:43:58.890 --> 00:44:16.970 Rachel (she/her/hers): And for myself, I've learned to be kinder to that impostor syndrome because it. I I recognize that that is a part of me that wishes to not be shamed publicly or otherwise. And so it's like, okay, I recognize you. You care about me, but you're not really who I am. 361 00:44:16.970 --> 00:44:36.570 Rachel (she/her/hers): and and it also allows me to to note when i'm unskilful, and it's the difference between saying, you're such a jerk and like Wow! That was really unskillful like. Wonder where it wonder, or if I can dig a little deeper into that. So I I find Savadia to be this crucial tool of awareness, and and 362 00:44:36.590 --> 00:44:42.020 Rachel (she/her/hers): allowing me to have a deeper self-love with accountability. 363 00:44:42.120 --> 00:44:43.120 Rachel (she/her/hers): Thank you. 364 00:44:43.810 --> 00:44:49.970 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Hmm. Thank you for sharing that, Rachel. I just want to take a moment to. Yeah, like 365 00:44:50.160 --> 00:45:06.320 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I really appreciate you sharing that. And I can still relate, because I know that i'm falling off my practice. You know that kind of self inquiry practice when i'm using words, or where the voices in my head are really harsh on me. 366 00:45:06.540 --> 00:45:09.380 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And so it's in those moments that i'm like, oh. 367 00:45:09.490 --> 00:45:13.990 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): right like, how can I reframe this because it's not that I like 368 00:45:14.200 --> 00:45:23.230 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): flight like a lot for me is like, oh, I messed that up. It's so slightly. I don't know what i'm doing, you know, can't do anything right right. It's like a whole. 369 00:45:23.560 --> 00:45:27.440 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Let's slow down, you know, and it doesn't have to be 370 00:45:28.000 --> 00:45:32.390 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): that absolute for defining my nature. and 371 00:45:33.410 --> 00:45:39.460 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): because our true nature from a yoga perspective, and also just like I really believe this is. 372 00:45:39.800 --> 00:45:57.950 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): It's wonderful like. Sure, I can be kind of flighty and not grounded, but it's actually my superpower. And the ways that I need to come back and connect to being more practical. That's great. I can notice it and do it, but not from a place of self criticism. 373 00:45:58.280 --> 00:46:00.850 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): So thank you. 374 00:46:01.680 --> 00:46:03.020 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And, Jessica. 375 00:46:08.000 --> 00:46:16.620 Jessica (she/her): Thank you so much. Everybody for your shares. That's having technical issues. I'm: like, how do I zoom again? So 376 00:46:16.730 --> 00:46:23.820 Jessica (she/her): you know. Yeah, yeah, is tough for me because 377 00:46:23.840 --> 00:46:26.800 Jessica (she/her): I get stuck on a loop 378 00:46:26.900 --> 00:46:31.470 Jessica (she/her): in my head where i'm doing so much self-examination 379 00:46:31.760 --> 00:46:35.170 Jessica (she/her): that I end up in decision paralysis. 380 00:46:35.410 --> 00:46:46.710 Jessica (she/her): and I can't move forward. And so you know, if anything, when I when I see this one, i'm like, oh, got it. But like now i'm trying to learn how to do that 381 00:46:47.230 --> 00:46:55.860 Jessica (she/her): with self compassion. trying to pay attention to the negative voices that come up in my head, and whose voices those actually are. 382 00:46:56.250 --> 00:47:15.680 Jessica (she/her): and a lot of the time like 99 of the time. It's not mine. It's something that someone said to me in the past that I've held on to, and then I really look at it. It's like 15 years ago. So you know, examining that, and really shutting light on the reality of those voices in my mind. 383 00:47:16.030 --> 00:47:24.570 Jessica (she/her): and then trying to move into action even when it's not exactly perfect, even when i'm scared. 384 00:47:24.910 --> 00:47:32.050 Jessica (she/her): And i'm teaching my first full yoga class this weekend and i'm terrified. But i'm also really excited. 385 00:47:32.980 --> 00:47:43.000 Jessica (she/her): And yeah, i'm going to do it, Anyway, i'm going to stop overthinking it, Thank you, and just show up, you know. 386 00:47:43.150 --> 00:47:44.180 Jessica (she/her): and 387 00:47:44.310 --> 00:48:01.110 Jessica (she/her): bring that sense of compassion to myself. It's a free Yoga class community class. No one's expecting it to be perfect. They all know that i'm a new teacher. So. But yeah, like, I have overthought it and never thought it enough. And now it's time to move into action. 388 00:48:02.030 --> 00:48:04.730 Jessica (she/her): But that's what I always get really 389 00:48:04.980 --> 00:48:05.970 Jessica (she/her): caught up on 390 00:48:06.150 --> 00:48:08.380 Jessica (she/her): with this future. So 391 00:48:08.740 --> 00:48:12.260 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): yes, thank you for sharing Jessica. 392 00:48:12.750 --> 00:48:25.450 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Yeah, how many folks can relate to overthinking. And yeah, I can definitely relate to that. I've been practicing with in my body 393 00:48:25.580 --> 00:48:34.790 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): because we are embodied right? We're not just brains. We're not just thoughts like floating around, and 394 00:48:35.420 --> 00:48:50.450 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): our bodies have so much wisdom to give us. And so for me, being a kind of heady person in a lot of ways I've had to learn to like. Trust my intuition to feel like oh, that doesn't feel 395 00:48:50.680 --> 00:49:06.640 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): right, or I have this feeling to go down that path, or you know it can be tricky to, because for me, before I teach, especially if i'm nervous like, the sensations of my body, are very intense. And actually for me, sometimes unpleasant, you know, like my heart's beating and clammy. And i'm sweaty. 396 00:49:06.860 --> 00:49:08.820 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and it's like, okay. 397 00:49:08.890 --> 00:49:26.610 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): There's also excitement. And there's also joy and there's also curiosity, right? So it's feeling bodily sensations and get in a way getting out of just my head. That's helped me practice by that as an in body practice. So I don't know if that 398 00:49:26.610 --> 00:49:29.350 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): that's something that can be 399 00:49:29.770 --> 00:49:31.820 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): to be something you explore. Jessica. 400 00:49:36.740 --> 00:49:39.750 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Thank you for your share, and I want to read 401 00:49:39.940 --> 00:49:43.850 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): what to me. And the cool said, yeah, other folks 402 00:49:44.510 --> 00:49:45.730 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): resonating 403 00:49:45.920 --> 00:50:03.890 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Jamie. I lean back and was engulfed by the memory of studying kinetic singing in Kerala, walking into the hot walking to the house, sitting in the room, the harmonium between me and Galuji atrium at the door to my left, with telescope reaching up to the sky 404 00:50:03.890 --> 00:50:10.950 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): in the center of it, the play between like profound groundedness and ephemeral flight, when singing 405 00:50:11.200 --> 00:50:18.170 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): forward, and was reminded that I've been singing more lately, and have been aware of how healing and nourishing it is 406 00:50:18.280 --> 00:50:29.640 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): improving my breathing posture, relaxing over extensive muscles, recruiting neglected ones. coming my Vegas response and emotions, and much more. 407 00:50:29.750 --> 00:50:38.700 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): It's really feeling that, Jamie i'm curious about how to bring singing more deep in deeply and consistently into my routine. Yeah. 408 00:50:39.120 --> 00:50:44.560 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): just some guiding, Jamie. Would you like to share out loud? 409 00:50:45.220 --> 00:50:47.820 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): You don't need to at all. But if you want to. 410 00:50:50.790 --> 00:51:00.040 Jamie (she/her) @tharavadayoga: you know what this is. Thank you. I'm in the car so it's like a little broken up a little bit, but 411 00:51:00.070 --> 00:51:02.580 Jamie (she/her) @tharavadayoga: you know it's there's been several 412 00:51:02.630 --> 00:51:19.680 Jamie (she/her) @tharavadayoga: science coming to me about ways that I can nourish, and I think it has to do with, You know spring time, and you know the senses are awakening in a different way right now, and singing has been one of them. That's really been coming up a lot for me. 413 00:51:19.680 --> 00:51:27.720 Jamie (she/her) @tharavadayoga: I used to be a singer, I mean. You don't ever stop using her. But you know I used to see more regularly, and you know I've studied different disciplines. 414 00:51:27.740 --> 00:51:36.930 Jamie (she/her) @tharavadayoga: and and they're just, you know. I just keep on getting these signs here and there. you know just a a a video that appears when I, you know. 415 00:51:37.110 --> 00:51:44.220 Jamie (she/her) @tharavadayoga: jump on Youtube that is like, hey? This is, you know, app for Carnatic singing, you know. 416 00:51:44.260 --> 00:51:47.440 Jamie (she/her) @tharavadayoga: And so yeah, today, when I was 417 00:51:47.450 --> 00:51:51.860 Jamie (she/her) @tharavadayoga: leaning forward and leaning back, it was sort of this opportunity 418 00:51:52.250 --> 00:51:59.700 Jamie (she/her) @tharavadayoga: to have this interplay between the past and the future, and sort of what the possibilities are 419 00:51:59.930 --> 00:52:05.000 Jamie (she/her) @tharavadayoga: that combine things that I love with things that are really really. 420 00:52:08.320 --> 00:52:16.110 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Yeah. thank you, Jamie. I love that. And you know it's so amazing, because 421 00:52:16.530 --> 00:52:18.990 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I think that often in our 422 00:52:19.020 --> 00:52:37.850 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): world the way it is, it's like when we do something and we love it, we sometimes think we have to monetize it, or make it a part of what we do in the world, but we don't right like we can sing like you were sharing just for the joy of it, or saying, you know. Maybe it becomes part of how we're sharing like part of how we open up 423 00:52:37.850 --> 00:52:50.230 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): class or close, you know, in Shavas and that type of thing. But for me a lot of my chanting happens just in my own practice, like in the morning or in the evening. 424 00:52:50.330 --> 00:52:59.730 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and in a way, organically, or i'll practice with a a T or a through a period of time. Sometimes it's a month, sometimes it's more. 425 00:52:59.800 --> 00:53:00.940 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and 426 00:53:01.170 --> 00:53:06.270 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): it is I. I also love what you did there of reminding yourself and us 427 00:53:06.290 --> 00:53:17.020 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): of the benefits of all of the wonderful things that come from certain. You know practices that we do, because that is a helpful feedback loop to get us to practice more. 428 00:53:17.760 --> 00:53:21.160 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Thank you to me. And 429 00:53:25.660 --> 00:53:28.270 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): yeah. 430 00:53:28.680 --> 00:53:36.370 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): okay, I don't need. Well, first i'm just gonna read this that I saw Carly to. I said Susanna, and I teach in such a powerful and body way. 431 00:53:36.370 --> 00:53:51.820 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I feel like you're meaning. I mean, Susannah. I really feel like your message always gets delivered with lots of clarity. So it's really calming for me to hear that I still still have a personal and totally normal human experience of nervous energy. 432 00:53:51.820 --> 00:54:10.220 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Thanks for that transparency and open hearted share. Yeah, yeah, I really do. And I at the point where like, when I come on before I meet with you all. I don't have it so much because I was talking to Katerina, and I was like I love. I love our time together. It's so 433 00:54:10.380 --> 00:54:14.680 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): nourishing. And so this I don't have so much anymore. I did at first. 434 00:54:14.870 --> 00:54:28.800 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): but if it was like a one off class or i'm presenting somewhere, I have absolutely online or in person. I do have that kind of nervous energy. And so when I queued you at the beginning to drop the like 435 00:54:29.380 --> 00:54:33.510 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): student, you know, Zoom face That was for me, too. 436 00:54:33.660 --> 00:54:37.030 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): right to just be like, Be here. B. And 437 00:54:37.290 --> 00:54:43.770 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): the love of Yoga, the love of practice with people who also love yoga and love practicing. 438 00:54:43.990 --> 00:54:45.080 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and 439 00:54:45.700 --> 00:54:50.750 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): it's coming back to. We'll talk about this, maybe in our next time we gather 440 00:54:51.400 --> 00:55:01.850 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): that kind of like like a like in teaching. We had a value statement, for, like a a teaching philosophy, philosophy is a little too heavy. But I think of like. 441 00:55:02.420 --> 00:55:10.790 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Why am I here and going back to that, even if my body is like having all sorts of reactions coming back to that, why 442 00:55:10.850 --> 00:55:15.220 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): helps me ground in my intention, and then create hopefully 443 00:55:15.320 --> 00:55:18.860 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and experience that that people 444 00:55:19.000 --> 00:55:25.290 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): feel, you know, and that land, and it's for them, because the other thing about nervousness for me, I notice 445 00:55:25.580 --> 00:55:36.420 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): when I wasn't grounding, is it actually took the experience away from them and made it back about me like oh, i'm Sorry, you know. And it's okay, like we have those inner thoughts that come out. 446 00:55:37.020 --> 00:55:37.750 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): But 447 00:55:37.820 --> 00:55:45.910 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): then, is it really about them, or is it about me protecting my, you know stuff out? So I had to move through that, and it's taken me. 448 00:55:45.930 --> 00:55:49.650 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and i'm sure there's still ways that i'm moving through it. 449 00:55:49.820 --> 00:56:08.920 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I want to leave Button. Paul says, I feel that so much. I can't figure out a name or quote unquote title for what I do. Besides, beyond facilitator. Yes, just wanna like underscore spiritually highlight this Nicole, because sometimes we don't fit into boxes. Right? We have so much wisdom. It's like, we're wise, elder. 450 00:56:08.920 --> 00:56:15.130 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): But who you know what job title is that, or like a I mean, not like an age elder, but like. 451 00:56:15.580 --> 00:56:17.080 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): have so much insight 452 00:56:17.590 --> 00:56:28.780 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): that we hold that space right. But who can give that as a job title. But I've been wondering how I can help you imagine a more equitable world and more equitable way of reading. 453 00:56:30.710 --> 00:56:44.380 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I was feeling really overwhelmed and hurt by some conversations I experience today, and the piece from the practice helped use some of the pain of being in spaces with people who don't value the same thing. I do. Yeah, really feeling that. 454 00:56:45.260 --> 00:56:46.100 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Hmm. 455 00:56:48.270 --> 00:56:49.560 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And 456 00:56:53.600 --> 00:57:02.870 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): yes, Susan, i'm in a Maharishi into the dharma talk for this theme, and they improve. Who am I in to silence 457 00:57:03.100 --> 00:57:07.480 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and inquiry into our joy? Right that basic nature of joy. 458 00:57:08.020 --> 00:57:08.760 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): that 459 00:57:10.430 --> 00:57:17.430 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): that can be the spark. you know. And I also want to speak into the space. I know we're closing soon, but like 460 00:57:18.290 --> 00:57:21.970 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): if you're here, I don't know who I am. I'm not feeling any joy. 461 00:57:22.370 --> 00:57:28.100 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And this talk or this conversation is not landing because it's not how I feel it's like. 462 00:57:28.520 --> 00:57:36.080 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Yeah. And you're welcome here, too, and there may be sparks. There may be moments where you feel less sad. 463 00:57:36.140 --> 00:57:39.230 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): You know we're like oh, I kind of like that wasn't that terrible 464 00:57:39.260 --> 00:57:44.130 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): right, and that follow that path, and follow this part, so follow the 465 00:57:44.150 --> 00:57:45.400 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): the things that 466 00:57:45.470 --> 00:57:54.640 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): where you feel a little more ease or a little more like yourself, even if they don't make sense, because those are clues and queues to 467 00:57:54.660 --> 00:57:55.830 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): to our 468 00:57:55.920 --> 00:57:57.990 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): deep self nature. 469 00:57:58.420 --> 00:58:08.090 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and it isn't going to talk mainly to us. It isn't going to tell us we did something wrong that we're bad, you know, like that in our self. Nature 470 00:58:08.340 --> 00:58:09.980 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): is going to come with 471 00:58:10.090 --> 00:58:14.420 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): with wisdom and with love to us, too. 472 00:58:14.930 --> 00:58:16.520 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): when it communicates. 473 00:58:17.820 --> 00:58:28.590 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): That is one of my favorite practices, challenging, but also one of the most powerful, the root of self compassion. Self love. Self-confidence is self study. Yes. 474 00:58:28.680 --> 00:58:35.430 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): getting to know myself, being curious without judgment. It's been like a catalyst of creating a more aligned life for myself. 475 00:58:35.720 --> 00:58:39.940 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): constant reminder to observe and inquire without touching 476 00:58:40.180 --> 00:58:46.280 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): the practice has been doing it. Scared? Yes, that we will never be 100% ready. And that's okay. 477 00:58:46.790 --> 00:58:58.950 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): We get to do it messy and give ourselves a kindness. We need to be okay with that, to keep getting messages, to continue creating and sharing that feels so scary and also so aligned working to harmonize those feelings. Yes. 478 00:58:59.360 --> 00:59:04.820 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and then, Katie, turning off, it has to be perfect, or it's not worth it. Yes. 479 00:59:05.470 --> 00:59:08.150 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): so hard to turn that off 480 00:59:08.890 --> 00:59:09.980 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and 481 00:59:10.190 --> 00:59:11.950 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): like it does help. 482 00:59:12.190 --> 00:59:28.000 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): That's why I wanted to bring in, you know, like so many things like, look for the imperfections right there everywhere, like in things, are not symmetrical. The solar system is not the earth doesn't move in a symmetrical way? It's like we're not meant to be 483 00:59:28.000 --> 00:59:42.870 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): perfectly aligned, like zipped up little boxes of beings like we're just not. We're meant to be quirky and weird, and you know, like Flowy sometimes, and rounded and not grounded. So so 484 00:59:43.150 --> 00:59:48.640 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): the invitation for this week this month, this time, is to self 485 00:59:48.940 --> 00:59:51.010 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): inquire to its 4, 486 00:59:51.230 --> 00:59:53.150 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and to have fun with that. 487 00:59:53.340 --> 00:59:56.170 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): to play. and to not be perfect. 488 00:59:56.970 --> 01:00:05.130 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): And so with that I think we will close in a moment. I don't see any other hands. London says. 489 01:00:05.210 --> 01:00:18.040 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I love receiving these shares, I feel very connected and less alone in my messy process. Yes. hmm, Karen, my side. Yeah. I hope we know when to go inside and find the real meaning versus the surface. 490 01:00:18.090 --> 01:00:19.690 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): What appears 491 01:00:19.730 --> 01:00:27.850 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): to be the obvious meeting of the human situations i'm. Involved in the lessons learned for Yoga living versus human debate. Yes. 492 01:00:28.370 --> 01:00:36.330 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): so thank you so much to each of you. I'm very grateful to be able to be with you each month a couple of times a month. 493 01:00:36.360 --> 01:00:39.060 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I'm. In a season of 494 01:00:40.070 --> 01:00:58.130 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): traveling, but also doing what I love, which is writing. I'm partly here to finish my second book, and just like be in that sometimes. It takes grand testers, you know, like sometimes it's not possible to do things in the way that we've been like setting things up, and we got to just like 495 01:00:58.130 --> 01:01:02.780 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I read about someone who bought a plane ticket there in back like 496 01:01:02.920 --> 01:01:18.380 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): right away, and wrote his book all the way there and then all the way back it was like, I think I'm going to do that, but actually stay a little bit and have some human experiences, and of course we can't All right. Just be like, you know. This is a plan thing, and 497 01:01:18.860 --> 01:01:21.930 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): the I share that to say 498 01:01:22.060 --> 01:01:27.830 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): it doesn't always have to make sense, and it doesn't always have to like. Look how you thought it was going to look 499 01:01:28.100 --> 01:01:29.190 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): and 500 01:01:29.720 --> 01:01:36.320 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): doing what you love, and exploring that, and connecting to to you. Really. 501 01:01:37.190 --> 01:01:39.520 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): it's such a beautiful way to practice. 502 01:01:39.540 --> 01:01:50.010 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Okay. So I hope that I hope that you take away some joy, some exploration, and I love to invite everyone to unmute, and we can say goodbye to close. 503 01:01:51.740 --> 01:02:04.210 Katie Komos (she/her): Thank you so much. Thank you. 504 01:02:09.440 --> 01:02:10.450 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): Hmm. 505 01:02:12.430 --> 01:02:13.450 Susanna Barkataki (she/her): I know.